Dreamland

sleep?

God why can't I sleep?
Trapped in my own mind begging for a release.

It's not easy to fix the problems that you created in your own head.
We try to find a way to break the mold of the past but they somehow find a way to slip back in our brains with no notice.

Why can't I move on?
There's always something holding me back.
But what is it?

What could possibly be holding me down so tightly that my will power is attacking my own strength?

I honeslty have no clue.

What haunts me at night is the thought of seeing your face and falling into your trap yet again.

Why can't I control myself?
Why can't I control my thoughts and put them to rest?

Because my feelings override my brain. They take it over with no mercy to give. And I have no option but to surrender completely.

God why can't I just sleep soundly?
And not be tied down by the weight of my heavy thoughts.

Why can't I let it go?
Why can't I erase you from my brain and sleep peacefully?

It's the impact you left on me.
It wasn't even a big one, but it's enough where it invades my every thought.

I long for the day where I can get a good nights sleep and not because of the drugs that fuel my brain to shut off.

I long for the day where you don't pop up in my mind...
Where I can think about myself and the future.

Oh what a day that will be...