Don't Forget You're Mine || Jerrie

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July 24, 2015

It has been a very long day for all four members of Little Mix. It started out with a Q&A, then an interview in which Jesy and Perrie were asked which one of them is going to get married first. It was the first time Perrie had to actually lie to someone's face about her engagement, saying that "it's finding the time." She felt bad for it, even though the alternative - which would be telling everyone about Zayn and her - seems a hundred times worse. From that interview, they went on to play a short performance and then headed to the airport. They took off to Sweden and landed when it was already dark outside. Right now, it is close to one AM and Jade and Perrie are in Perrie's hotel room. Tonight, they gave up on pretending they do not want to spend the night together.

The two women sit in front of each other at the small dining table. They are eating two pieces of chocolate cake they have ordered from room service, because what would be a better way to sleep than sugar past midnight?

Certain serious conversations can only take place in very specific situations. It being so late in a foreign country is perfect, and Perrie decides to bring up an insecurity she has begun to develop just recently. When things between Zayn and her were starting to go downhill, that is when some unfamiliar voices found their way into her mind, and they did not not shut up since then.

"When you said last night that I will find someone much better," she slowly starts. "Did you mean it? Like, do you really think that will happen one day?"

"I do," Jade replies. "I don't think he was your one and only or whatever. You're going to find someone else."

"Sometimes I'm not so sure," Perrie says as she brings the fork to her mouth, filling it with chocolate.

"Why is that?" Jade asks. She is looking at Perrie, who is wearing borrowed pajamas that do not fit her to the exact, and her blonde hair is far from tidy. The lightning is bad and dark circles are present under her blue eyes, but Jade can definitely say she looks beautiful. Anyone would be lucky to have her.

"It is just that..." Perrie says, but her words drift off. Then, she gathers her thoughts and tries expressing them again. "I know I'm only twenty two, and I really shouldn't be worried about this stuff, but I'm scared that nothing will ever work out. I don't want to be alone. I've done it for only four days now, and it's already really depressing."

"I know how you feel," Jade tells her with a sad, understanding smile. "I've been single for so long now I don't even think I remember what having a relationship is like. I keep wondering what I'm doing wrong, but it's no use. Sometimes I think I might end up alone, that this is up to fate, and this is my fate. Like you said, it's really depressing. But most of the time I do have a bit of hope that one day it will just happen, and I will forget all about how lonely I'm feeling right now."

"Jade, you seriously shouldn't be worried," Perrie replies. "You're Jade, the closest thing to perfection I have ever met. You're super nice and super sweet and no one could ever really dislike you. But me... That's a different story. I almost got married to someone, and then it ended. Do you know what kind of impression that gives off? That I'm scared of commitment, that I tend to run away and all sorts of bad stuff. And that's before we're even saying that that the man we're talking about is Zayn Malik."

"Pez, you have it the wrong way. You are Perrie, a literal goddess. You light up every room you walk into, people can't take their eyes off of you. And I... I'm Jeed. I don't even remember the last time I kissed someone."

"You can kiss me," Perrie says and shrugs her shoulders. Sure, she had wondered before what it would feel like to kiss Jade. It just seems natural since they are so close, and have known each other for years now. On top of that, no one could ever deny the fact that Jade is simply gorgeous. Perrie hopes that anyone who spends so much time with such a great person, no matter who they are, will eventually have some thoughts that are more than friendly. She cannot be only one feeling like this. Acting on these thoughts does not mean anything, it is just out of curiosity.