His Nerd

Chapter Thirty Two

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Before I could even comprehend what he just said, Mason leans in and licks the corner of my lips

"There. Delicious," he said leaning back licking his lips as I stare at him astonished

Did he actually?

No he didn't...

But he did.. 

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I continue to stare at Mason in disbelief while he simply continues to lick his ice cream as if he had no care in the world

"Mason.." I whisper eyeing him cautiously  

He looks up at me with a boyish grin his hair slightly covering his eyes

"What are you doing?" I asked him in a hushed manner

"What do you mean?" he asked obliviously, "eating my ice cream?" he teased raising his eyebrow just slightly

I shake my head slightly looking down as I run my hands through my hair

"Why'd you do that?"

I look back at him to see his playful look replaced with a serious one 

"Angela, I like you. It's obvious I like you. I respected your decision as much as I possibly could to be with that asshole and now that his out of the picture, I figured-"

"You figured what Mason?" I asked cutting him off creasing my eyebrows not particularly enjoying where this is going

His eyes widened most likely due to my tone

I wasn't trying to sound cruel or rude or harsh but what'd he expect? I've made it clear to him, haven't I?

He takes a big sigh putting his ice cream cone down while he laughs humorlessly

"I thought we could finally give us a try," He said bitterly, " What? Am I that undesiring to you?" He asked looking at me in the eyes with a stone expression

My gaze falters slightly as I realized how much I was hurting him

I do love Mason. But not in that way. I don't think I could ever love him in a more than friendly way

A part of me hated myself for that. Mason was perfect. He was handsome, a gentleman, caring, always there for me regardless of anything, and I knew I'd be safe with him. I'd never have to worry. It'd be easy. 

But I didn't want that. There was no fiery passion...I wanted that fiery passion...

"You are desirable Mason," I said looking at him earnestly, "You are the epitome of perfection"

"Then why can't you give us a try?" He pleaded grabbing onto my hand interlacing our hands together

I looked at our intertwined hands but I felt nothing..if anything...it just felt wrong

I gently remove my hand from his and seeing the look of Mason's face as I did so made me regret even doing it

He looked so crushed..as if I just shot him..shot his hope

"Mason..you deserve a girl that's so smitten over you that she would say yes in a heartbeat" I reasoned

I don't deserve him..I'd only hurt him

He deserves someone who would do as much for him as he would do for her

"But that's the thing, Angela," He said angrily tugging on his hair roughly, "you don't choose who you like. If I could, trust me. I'd save myself from falling for you but I can't" he said defeated looking down as if this was tearing him apart

Sadness consumed me as I watched Mason look so beat. It hurt me knowing I was the one who was doing this to him. I didn't wanna do this to him

Would it be so terrible for me to give him a chance? Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe Mason is exactly what I need. No drama, no issues, just peace. 

I inhale deeply as I stare at Mason who continues to avoid my gaze most likely embarrassed

"Mason, I-"

"No" He put his hand up stopping me midsentence, "I get it..you don't want me. I'm not good enough for you but please...fucks sake..don't you see what you're doing to me" He said in a bitter tone but the bitterness wasn't addressed to me. It was addressed to him. "I promise if you give me a try..I will do everything in my power to keep you happy, I-"

"Mason--"

"I know I'm not rich nor am I the best guy in the world out here, but I definitely am better than that dick. I'd never hurt you-"

"Mason, li--"

"And I will show you Angela, I will show you how much you mean to-"

"MASON!" 

He finally stops ranting to me looking at me all nervous

"Okay," I say shortly giving him a smile

He creases his eyebrows together staring at me confused 

"Yes, I will give you a chance" I clarify watching his confused expression morph into the largest grin I think I've ever seen Mason have on his face

"Really?" He asks excitedly 

"Really," I say smiling back at him but I couldn't ignore the small voice in my head saying I was making a mistake