Into the Oven

Losing Game

I miss you so much but you're still not here with me. You walk in my thoughts and smile at me in my dreams but at the end of it all, you're not actually with me. You hide from me somewhere out of my sight.

Why must you do this to me? Does it satisfy you to have me going crazy over you? I need you now in so much more than a physical way. My heart and my soul are yearning for yours.

But still you do not come. You leave me waiting and wondering, what if you never come back to me?

You aren't, are you? You aren't ever coming back. Perhaps this was all just a game to you. I was just on the losing side. Or was the game doomed from the start? Did I ever have a chance at winning?

Regardless, I will still continue waiting for you. I cannot control the love my heart feels for you or the desperate longing my soul has to join with yours.

I will continue to be yours even if you aren't mine. And if you decide to turn around, I'll be here. But until then, I'll keep playing this losing game.

~ Crumb