It wasn't like I planned to explode in front of everyone.
Not like I went there with the sole intent to let out what's devouring my soul.
But what I learned killed me.
It manifested itself into a bullet and pulverized my heart.
I just cried and cried.
The salty tears that where shed tasted of betrayal.I never expected everyone to rush to me.
Luke grabbed me and never let go.
My mentor.
My friend.
A father figure.
The man I looked up to.
Grabbed me, held me, told me it was going to be ok.I cried for 2 hours and he never let me go.
He comfort me.
A hysterical weep.
As though it would never stop.Every emotion, every screw up, every terrible decision, every "I love you" I heard from you and every one I said to you came out in those tears.
It was as though it was all a lie.
I knew though....that you'd be the one to destroy me.
You've killed me before.
And I smiled.And now I smile too.
I'm a fool.Because even though I know.
Even though my intuition was right .I want to be there for you.
Even though it's agony.Even though I go through a pack a day.
Even though my pillow is crusty from the tears I've shed every night.
I want to be there.
I want you to know THAT'S HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.
That that's real love.
Even though you smile when you drive that knife of yours in my body and twist.
I'll smile
Ill tell you that I love you.
I'll cry for you.
Like I always did .Today.
Was the day you destroyed me.Tomorrow.
I will smile.
I will love you.
And I will cry all over again.I bawled for you today.
I bawled because you killed me.
You destroyed me.
I loved you.
I love you.
I always came running to you.
Why am I writing this?
Because I care.
*"Or am I just goin' crazy cause I miss you"
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