I'M Bullshit

Dark Hole // What I've Been Too Scared To Post

I know. I know.
Too much bojack.

I've always hated this scene.
Because it's us. (It's cringy saying that)

This scene just speaks volumes.
Because our relationship was always going to end in failure.
I know this.
You knew this and you were smart enough to escape.

I just kept holding you down.
I think I just realized what you ment by saying "you made me a shitty person"

I was the black hole.

A black hole can never love a sun.
When the Sun gets too close the black hole devours it.

I loved you. I loved you. I loved you. I loved you. I loved you.

Say you love me back.
Please.

Say our love wasn't hopeless.

Say we still aren't hopeless

Say I didn't devour your heart and only spat out hatred.

Say I'm not a black hole.

Maybe that's why you couldn't say it back when I begged, because you realized how toxic i was.

Because all I was to you was hate?
A dark spot on your sunny day.

You finally saw me for the black hole I was.

Is this my epiphany?

Can I finally move on?

Can I love someone else like you do?

Will I hurt someone else again?

Will everyone I love realize how toxic I am.

How far from lovable am I?

And then I realized it was you.
The end.

**March 21st 2021