I'M Bullshit

Guilt Trip

Please don't see these as a guilt trip.

I'm just extremely depressed and I need an outlet.

I can't cry so I write.

I wish I could cry.

My heart won't let me.

Because you have mine.

I want to be strong like you

I want to be able to move on like you

It's just so hard.

I'm going from texting you everyday to not at all.

To waking up to you and falling asleep to you.

To not at all.

I'm not getting used to not saying I love you's or the I missed you.

I was building my life to have you in it forever.

I saved up so much so we can be together .

What do I do now that all of that is gone?

I want to forget.

I wish this was all a bad dream.

I wish I was better.

This is my punishment.

The hell of my own making.

There is so much left.
I don't want to just leave.
I wanted us to die together.

You have my heart.

Can you please just kill it if you haven't already.

I don't want to love.