Lost Academy

Lost Academy #96

Lost Academy #96 Finale!

[ASPER]

I am speechless and utterly shocked. She told me a lot of things. Things that I couldn't even begin to comprehend. Everything she said was beyond me.

Hindi na halos kayang iprocess ng utak ko lahat ng nalaman ko. Ngunit kahit gaano pa kaposible ang mga sinasabi niya, wala rin naman akong matibay na rason para sabihing imposible ang lahat ng ito. Now I understand why kuya probably my father had kept me in the dark. The circumstances are very complex for me to understand.

"It's hard to take it all in but everything I said was the truth." Ang lala, dina-digest pa ng utak ko ang mga narinig ko mula sa kanya.

"K-kung totoo nga ang sinabi mo, ibig sabihin ba no'n, hindi pa dapat ako nag-eexist ngayon?" tanong ko. Sumunod naman ang mahabang katahimikan sa pagitan namin.

This is too much. Ang sabi niya isa raw ako sa napakaraming bersyon ng katauhan ko sa hinaharap. I wasn't supposed to exist here but in order for their plans to succeed, my kuya brought me here and for what, I don't know the exact reason, ang alam ko lang, the past me, I mean- the real me in this time, is not someone they needed. As she said, 'what can a little girl do?' Well, she's not wrong. What can the little me do? Wala. I don't know what my kuya is really planning but I know kuya, he's serious and everything he does has a reason that's why I believe that I am here with a purpose. A purpose I couldn't seem to figure out and it's downright confusing.

Napatawa na lamang ako ng mapakla nang bigla kong maalala ang sinabi noon ni Sambre nung nasa gubat kami at pagtangkaan niya ang buhay ni Ella. Sambre was right. My life was full of lies. Everything that I know about myself and my life all turned out to be a big joke. There's nothing real here, I am not even... real.

"Bakit? Bakit sa ganitong paraan?" I asked her again. I know it is useless because the lady in front of me was just a remnant of the former princess Alice. My mom's last piece of soul, was sealed along the moons flower inside me to guard it against anyone who dares to harbour ill-intention towards it. She can only bear witness to everything but cannot decide to the present circumstances.

No wonder, my memories sometimes overlaps with someone else. I can see images and scenes that are really unfamiliar to me. Lahat ng iyon pala ay sa kanya dahil naninirahan na ang kapirasong ng kaluluwa niya sa loob ko nung bata pa ako at kaya pala minsan pakiramdam ko may kung anong bumabagabag sa loob ko na hindi ko maexplain. The moon's flower already presented itself but I remained nonchalant. Binalewala ko ang mga pagkakataong nararamdaman ko at napapanaginipan kong may mga petals ng dahon na nahuhulog papunta sa kamay ko pero hindi ko naman mahawak-hawakan. That is all because of this.

"Asper..." mahinang tawag niya sa akin na nagpapahiwatig na manghihingi nanaman siya ng sorry.

"Stop." sabi ko saka ko denistansya ang sarili ko sa kanya. "Sa mga nangyayari ngayon, hindi ko kakailanganin ng sorry. I am really confused right now and the last thing I would want is to be overly emotional. Hindi 'yon makakatulong sa akin, sa amin." She then heaved out a sigh. That's right. Being too emotional won't help me right now.

"He's your dad, I am your mom. No matter what happens, that will never change. I will not pursue this any further so as not to confused you anymore but Asper, what ought to be will ought to be..." Alam kong marami pa siyang gustong sabihin sa akin. Maging ako man, marami pa akong katanungan sa kanya, if only time would allow us to, I will just sit here and listen to her all day but I know, every second na nilalagi ko dito ay siya namang isang segundong panganib sa mga taong malapit sa akin. Sa halip na magsalita pa siya ay muli na lamang siyang napabuntong hininga. Then suddenly, the look in her eyes changed. It looked more resolute and determine rather than the gentle eyes she've been looking me at with.