Through My Eyes

The Letter

Dearest Charlie,

This is not a love letter.

I just want to let you know how I truly feel. This is my best way of telling you what's in my head. I hope you'll hear me out.

I've been through a lot lately and I'm pretty blessed that I am still alive. Choosing between someone in the past and someone who I'm seeing my future with is quite difficult. It's like choosing between air or water - both equally essential in surviving.

I know I already let you go because I thought that you don't deserve someone like me. I always believe that you are meant for someone who can give you the world. However, I realized that I'm making decisions all by myself. Where in fact this should be a decision shared by two independent beings.

What we shared is something that I can't get out of my system. I honestly haven't felt that love for quite some time now and so I got scared. If I continue being scared, I might lose someone who could be my greatest love. Realizing that makes me more scared. 

I want to give myself a chance to take a risk. To love and be brave enough to get hurt again. I would love to wake up each day knowing that I can be with you - to be loved by you.

I am trying to get up. I've been wondering what do I really want to do now to continue living. It is simple - to love you and be loved by you.

It may be too much to ask but I really want you to be part of my life and I hope we won't ever have to part.

Well, what I'm saying is... Are you still willing to take the risk with me?

I hope we can give US another chance. I'm not sure what the future may hold. All I know is that it's not going to be that easy. No relationship is by the way. It's going to be a roller-coaster ride - scary, exhilarating, and fun! I am so willing to experience it with you.

I 'm probably on my way to the bar where Bree, I and our friends are supposed to meet. I am finally ending things with her and choosing to be free from her and our past.

If ever you are still willing to take me back, I hope to see you in my car. Here's the spare key.

I believe in your love - our love! 

Blake

Charlie was the one who drove the car to their house. I wasn't crying anymore but I was holding her hand all throughout the ride.

I'm glad she's willing to take the risk with me. I glance at her from time to time, appreciate this amazing person that I am with.

"Blake... Nakakatunaw!" She commented one time she caught me staring at her.

I just smiled and tighten my grip to her hand.

"I love you... You know that right?" I told her.

"I felt it, Blake... That's more than enough!" She answered.

It was already late and I guess everyone is asleep, so we quietly went to her room. I hit the shower as I'm still feeling the alcohol in my blood. When I went out of the bathroom, she was sitting on her bed.

"Hindi ka pa inaantok?" I asked.

She moved her head to disagree.

I smiled and sit beside her. She asked me to drink the cold water and so I finished it. Maybe it will spare me from a possible hangover.