Housemates With Benefits [COMPLETE|PUBLISHED]

Sabrina (28)

The DJ changed the song.  Still dance music, but got even more dirtier.  Lalong nagkagulo ang mga tao sa dancefloor.  Some spectators, including Rachel,  grabbed a partner and joined us kaya lalong nagkadikit kami ni Jacob, to give space to the newcomers.  

Through my blouse, I can feel the pad of his fingers trailing across my spine.  May pag-aalangan sa mga actions niya.  Halatang nangangapa siya sa kung ano ang puwede at hindi puwedeng gawin.  I could have told him to hold me harder, bring me closer.  Or he could have put his hands on my waist or be more daring and caressed my thighs.  Not this tentative hold he has on me.  But I didn't say anything.  I don't feel like being accommodating to any man right now.  I just smiled, closed my eyes, and drowned myself in the dance.  Pumasok sa isip ko na baka ma-awkward-an pa siya lalo at magpasyang iwan ako dito sa dancefloor.  I would have preferred that.  I can always dance with myself and be happy.  I was trained that way naman.

Eyes still closed, I slowly traced the arms surrounding me and turned around just as slowly while bringing my arms in the air. Nabitawan na ako ni Jacob sa puntong iyon. I caressed my own hand while swinging my hips around.  Hindi man na ako nahahawakan ni Jacob, alam kong nananatili siyang nasa likuran ko.  I can feel his body heat.

Ilang indak ko pang nakatalikod bago ko naramdaman ang mga kamay na pumatong sa magkabilang side ng aking bewang.  Napangiti ako.  It seems that dear old Jacob finally found his spine to touch me with conviction.  Nakapagkit pa rin ang ngiti sa aking mga labi when I was twirled around and found myself plastered on an achingly familiar chest.  That definitely isn't Jacob. Napamulat ako and came face to face with Oliver na matiim ang pagkakatitig sa akin.  Ang kanyang mga kamay nakapulupot sa aking bewang, loose enough for me to still sway but tight enough that I can't run away if I wanted to.

Awtomatiko akong nag-iwas ng tingin sa kanya to search for Jacob at nakita ko naman ang lalaki na nakikisayaw din sa kaninang kapareha ng housemate ko.  The switch happened so fast na hindi ko naramdaman.  May umusbong na inis sa akin para kay Jacob.  Am I that easy to give away kung kani-kanino lang?

"Eyes on me, Sabrina," angil ng aking kaharap na ikinabalik ng tingin ko sa kanya. Napataas ang aking kilay sa kanyang tonong nag-de-demand.  My lips are still smiling but I could feel my eyes burning up with suppressed heat.  Inilingkis ko din ang aking mga braso paikot sa kanyang leeg to keep a semblance of goodwill between us pero I feel everything except good towards this guy.

"My eyes are my own.  I can look at whoever, wherever, whatever I want to na wala kang say."

Dumiin ang mga daliri niya sa tagiliran ko na ikinahinto ng aking pag-indak.  Maging siya ay hindi na rin nagpapanggap na sini-sway ako.  "Don't provoke me, Rodriguez."

Nakatayo kaming dalawa sa gitna ng mga nagsasayawan, staring daggers at each other.  Alam ko ang dahilan ng aking ipinagsisintir.  Ang sa kanya, hindi ko alam kung ano ang pinanghuhugutan.

"We agreed on you socializing for some hours, go home together, and fuck each other to oblivion," he hissed at my face. "What the hell are you doing dancing with the idiot?"

Kulang na lang ay mag-fall off na mula sa mukha ko ang aking mga kilay sa sobrang taas ng pagkaka-angat nila.  "Ilang bote na ba ang nainom mo?  You're talking crazy, San Martin!  I didn't agree to any of that.  And even if I did, ano ngayon?  Hindi mo ako pag-aari.  I can do whatever I want with whoever I want.  And before you barged in, I was happily dancing with Jacob.  That's what I wanted to do and with the person I wanted to do it with."

I swear I could hear his mental roaring.  I can feel his fingers on my waist shivering in suppressed rage.  The dark expression on his face and the heat in his eyes is a cross between wanting to snap me in half and his desire to slam me on the nearest wall and, as he earlier said, fuck me to oblivion.  Nag-aagaw ang galit at libog sa mukha niya.  And the fact that there's an answering heat in me just proves how fucked up our non-relationship is.  Fucked. Up. Naikuyom ko ang aking mga kamaong nakapatong sa balikat niya.