I Have Loved You Wrong [Ruin & Lily]

Kabanata 9

Tila mas nagkaroon ng dahilan si Mama para hindi ako papasukin. If I knew, gusto lang niya akong ilayo kay Silver. Pero hindi rin naman ako makakapasok pa. My lower abdomen still ached like crazy and this whole menstruation thing was exhausting and wearing me out.

Wala akong ibang ginawa kundi ang humilata sa kama sa sumunod na araw. Kuya Ruin checked on me before he went to school. Pero tulad ng hiling ko, talagang isang oras lang ang ibinigay niya sa akin, and he was back to being cold to me again. After that cuddle with me, wala na siya sa kama ko nang gumising ako.

I let out a defeated sigh. I picked up my phone and looked at the text messages Dessa, Fergus, and Silver sent me.

    Silver: Hi.

    Silver: Is everything alright?

    Silver: Napagalitan ka ba?

    Silver: I miss you.

I sighed. Kung bibigyan lang sana siya nila Mama ng pagkakataon, they would see that he was someone trustworthy.

    Ako: There is nothing to worry about, Silver. Just feeling under the weather. I’ll be back on Monday.

    Ako: I miss you, too.

    Ako: I love you.

Matapos mag-send noon ay binuksan ko naman ‘yong halos parehas na text nina Dessa at Fergus.

    Dessa: Bakit hindi ka pumapasok? Miss ka na namin. [crying emoji]

    Fergus: Bakit ka absent? Aba naman! Tumulong ka sa pag-aayos ng booth natin! Bruhang ‘to!

I decided to videocall them, tutal ay wala namang klase. Pero nangunot na lang ang noo ko nang hindi kumonekta sa Wi-fi namin ‘yong cellphone ko. I checked and saw that the password was changed.

What?

What was going on?

Bakit walang Wi-Fi?

Naman!

I tried connecting with my mobile but I ran off data.

Ugh!

Bakit ngayon pa?

I ended up just texting them.

    Ako: Dessa! Dalaga na ako! May mens na ako! [laughing emoji]

    Ako: Kaya pala sobrang sakit ng puso ko noong isang araw. [sad emoji]