ʜɪꜱ ꜱᴀᴠɪᴏʀ ━ Bucky Barnes/Avengers

14: her savior

"It's him, I know it was him. I saw it with my own eyes."

"Even if it was him, you can't let your feelings take control. We have a mission to finish." Nat responds, "Stopping Project Insight is top priority."

"He's under HYDRA's control, we have to do something!"

Steve and Nat bicker in the middle of the room while Sam stood behind and I sat down on a chair quietly, deep in thought. After encountering the Winter Soldier, under different circumstances now, other HYDRA agents had taken us, or so we thought. A SHIELD agent, Maria Hill, who works with Nick Fury, rescued us, which was surprisingly alive all this time in order to cover themselves. It got us off guard, but there was no time to react.

"Will you two stop bickering and actually make a plan? We have to disable the Helicarriers with three server blades, so who's going to do it?" Fury interrupts them. He turns to me, "New girl, are you up for the job?"

I raise a brow, "Me?"

"Yes, you. Are you ready to complete your first mission?"

I correct him, "I'm sorry, you're mistaken. I'm not here to be a part of the Avengers, I'm here for my friends. This is just a task I need to do with them."

"So, you're planning on stopping the Winter Soldier?"

Mentioning him still shocks me. I want to think it's Bucky, but it's not. The eyes I saw were not the same as the ones I saw seventy years ago, but he was definitely in there somewhere. I'm just not sure what to do.

"I... I don't know."

"You don't know? That man is an assassin for crying out loud." He repeats as he flails his arms in the air. "Does anyone in this room have a solid plan?"

I stood up abruptly, making the chair skid against the floor. I leave the room and stomp outside where I could get some fresh air. All of this was just too much for me, more than I can handle at once. First I found out about my father, now about Bucky being alive. I can't even look at him the same way anymore, the reason he's like this is because of my father. What am I supposed to do?

I stop by the bridge and hold on to the railing, allowing my thoughts to run in my head. It hasn't even been a week and so much has happened. This was the only time I could really think it over, and I didn't even have that much time. Frustrated, I ran my fingers through my hair as I squeeze my eyes shut in order not to cry.

Bucky is alive. He's alive.

I say it in my head over and over again until I've lost count. Light footsteps were headed towards me, which I thought were Steve's, but they were Nat's.

She stood next to me, facing the distance. "Diane," she starts, "I know so many things are going on for you and I'm sorry. And I may not know him as you and Steve do, but you know what has to happen, right?"

I sniffle, "I can't just leave him as he is. That wasn't the person I knew back then, but he's in there. I saw it in his eyes."

"He's not the kind you save Diane, he's the kind you stop." She says sternly. I could tell she was anxious, but I wouldn't blame her even if she wasn't. "Millions of lives are at stake and I can't just let you go, trying to save someone you can't instead of saving those you can. I've been training you for something like this, can't you see?"

I turn to her, "You trained me to strengthen me, not to put me as a part of the Avengers. You saved me, why can't I do the same for him?"

"Because he almost killed you, Diane." She snaps back. "It's not him anymore."

My chest tightens. Even though I was confused myself, the more she told me to leave him, the more I wanted to fight back. "No, I killed him." I clench my fist, fighting back tears once again, "My father's the reason why HYDRA succeeded with those serums, the reason why they turned him into someone else, and it's all my fault. Maybe if I hadn't gotten into that room that day, none of us would be here."