Falling Irrevocably

16th

16th

Tumaas ang kamay niya at aambang sasampalin ako. Napapikit ako at hinanda ang sarili sa gagawin niya pero hindi lumapat ang palad niya sa pisngi ko.

"Enzo! What the fuck, bro?!"

It was Kuya Iann who grabbed him. Kasama nito si Kuya Tristan.

"Are you crazy? You're going to hit her?!" Galit na sigaw ni Kuya Tristan sa kanya at bahagya siyang itinulak palayo sa akin.

They are here! Tsaka ko lang naalala muli si Ria dahil sa pagdating ng mga ito. Bigla akong naguluhan at nagtama muli ang mga mata namin.

"You fucking slut!" Sigaw ni Chanler at dinuro ako.

A slut? He just called me a slut! Kumirot ang puso ko dahil duon.

Hindi naman ako nagpatalo sa galit niya. What left in me is my ego and I have to protect it. Kahit iyon na lamang.

"A slut? Huh! I'm the slut you fuck everytime you fucking want!" Singhal ko sa kanya.

Hindi nakatakas sa aking pandinig ang pagsinghap ng dalawa sa sinabi ko. Hindi siguro sila makapaniwala. That I've been fucked by one of my brother's closest friend, na kaibigan din nila. It's against their bro code.

Chanler went ballistic and want to attack me again. I bet he see red now because of his hatred. Hindi ko naman siya masisi sa kinikilos ngayon. It's all my fault. My desperate love for him was too much and it ends me up here.

Hating by the man I only love. Hating by him.

Sinubukan niyang magpumiglas sa hawak nila Kuya Iann pero hindi nagtagumpay.

"Calm the fuck down, Enzo!" Kuya Iann tried to calm him as he pat his back.

"Palapit na si Psalm!" Sabi naman ni Kuya Tristan. Napalingon tuloy ako sa direksyon na tinitingnan niya kaya napaayos kami lahat ng tayo.

Masamang tingin pa rin ang iginawad sa akin ni Chanler. His eyes are burning in madness. The opposite of what I want him the way he look at me.

This is the aftermath of what I did, late nga lang. Mali naman talaga sa kahit anong aspeto ang nagawa ko kaya wala akong karapatan na hindi tanggapin ang galit niya. Celine was right, I killed their child, demonyo ako.

"What's happening here?"

Kuya Iann gave me a look before he answered my brother.

"Nakainom si Enzo," Pagsisinungaling nito. Now, I wonder why they kept it from my brother. Pero siguro iniisip din nila ang kapakanan ng lahat, kung malalaman ito ng kapatid ko ay lalo lang magkakagulo.

"Iuwi mo na si Den, I'll look for Ria," Sabi naman ni Kuya Tristan. Hindi naman ako pumayag na hindi mahanap ang bestfriend ko kaya sumama pa rin ako. Naiwan si Chanler kasama si Kuya Iann at alam kong pilit nito pinapakalma ang kaibigan.

I could say that this night was a disaster. We caught Ria kissing Ephraim, Chanler's younger brother. Nagalit tuloy si Kuya Tristan at napauwi kaming lahat ng wala sa oras.

"Bakit galit si Enzo?"

"Huh?" Napaayos ako ng pagkakasandal sa upuan nung basagin ni Kuya Psalm ang katahimikan. We're in his car, going home already.

He took a quick glance at me before looking at the road again.

"He seems like fumming mad from afar, do you know why?" Sabi pa nito kaya napalunok ako.

I shook my head even if he couldn't see it. I held my hands together. I suddenly wanted to cry again.

"I... I don't know, when I got there, he was already mad," Pagdadahilan ko.