Falling Irrevocably

20th

20th

5 years later...

"Set an appointment at the MC gallery, I want to have a deal with them,"

Tumango ang assistant ko at nagsulat sa ipad niya.

"Anything, Ma'am?"

I politely shook my head.

"Iyon lang muna, Mika," Sabi ko at ngumiti sa kanya. Matapos ay nagpaalam na ito para gawin ang impending paper works namin tapos ang inutos ko na rin sa kanya.

MC Gallery has been wanting to deal with me ever since I got back to the country. Common friend ni Kuya Isaac ang curator ng gallery kaya pinagbigyan ko na. Not just because of that, but because of their terms and conditions too.

Their weeks of calling me will be worth it because I will sign a contract with them.

I glance at my favorite art work in front of my desk. It's an abstract painting that I did back when I was still in the mental institution. One of their theraphy for me was painting since that's what I love to do the most. This painting means a lot to me. A lot of curator wants it specially in Italy. Maraming articles na ang na-publish about sa totoong meaning nito. Hindi ko naman sinasabi kung may tumama sa panghuhula nila.

'Cause I believe that an art work have different meanings, it will only matter base on the perspective of the audience. Malawak ang pwedeng masakop na ibig sabihin nito. Yet as the artist and creator of it, I have my own description of it.

Napangiti na lamang ako. Pumunta sa mga bago kong gawang paintings ang mga mata ko. It's five in total. Ito ang collection na gusto makuha ng MC gallery. It is entitled 'l'amore della madre', italian translation of Mother's Love.

I have done several of collections already. And mostly it's all about motherhood.

Halos apat na taon na akong artist. I stayed in the mental instition for about several months until they let me go. After that, I really pursue my dream on becoming an artist. Akala ko ay hindi ako papalarin pero parang ito talaga ang nakatadhana na mangyari.

Without an educational background about arts, I was selected by a gallery in Italy as their artist. Nakita nila ang mga works ko sa mental institution. Someone contact me after I got out then the rest was history. 

Hindi ko akalain na magugustuhan nila ang mga gawa ko.

After a lot of contemplation in myself, I decided to go back to my home country. I'm still working at the gallery back in Italy but I will be base here. They even say that I should grab opportunities here rather than focusing with them only. And this will be the first time I'll work here. Sana ay maging maganda ang takbo ng career ko rito katulad sa Italy.

I will be always grateful for my brothers. They have been with me ever since that day. Hindi sila napagod sa pagtulong sa akin. Medyo na-delay ko pa nga ang love life ni Kuya Psalm gawa ng inasikaso niya talaga ako sa Europe for about three years.

Napakulong niya yung prof ko pero hindi ko na alam ang nangyari sa kanya pagkatapos. I don't bother knowing too. That's part of my past now and I should look forward always in the present and most specially in the future.