Loving her

Chapter 51

Walking into Liam's bedroom is somehow unsettling despite it looking almost identical to my dorm room. The thought of Ava somehow figuring out where I am, makes the knots in my stomach twist even more. „thank you for letting me have another chance." He says with an honest smile but all I manage to do is nod my head slowly. „You can stay here if you want to, Ava doesn't have to know." He says with a smile. „how do I know you're not just doing the same with her? Cheating . . . again?" I ask, no sure I want to hear the answer. Maybe living under a rock, ignoring every move and mistake will make my life easier . . . simpler somehow. 

„I'm not, Olivia, it was a dumb mistake and I . . . I want you, just like we talked. About in the car." He explains and I give him a small smile. Maybe he is right, maybe he does deserve a second chance, something about the way he's looking at me seems to be telling me there's no way those eyes are deceitful. I glance at the clock, it's almost one am, I know Ava won't sleep through the whole night without waking up at least once, but staying with Liam is more than worth it. „do you promise you won't tell Ava?" I ask, knowing how much in the wrong I am, especially after our rekindled friendship. „I promise." He says with a simple smile, before removing his shirt and fluffing his pillow. „You coming?" he asks as I stand there looking at his bare chest. „um, yeah." I simply say before turning the light off, there's no way I'd ever let Liam see my body undressing it'd be humiliating, I can barely fit through the door sometimes without having to seriously suck in my stomach, but to my defence, the door is unusually narrow. 

„turn on the light, I want to see you change." He says with a raspier voice than usual. „no, I . . . I don't want too." I reply, my voice weaker than intended. I don't want to show him what I look like just yet. Getting comfortable with the fact that he likes my body is still setting in. I hear him sigh. „I don't even know what I'm doing here," I surprisingly admit. Saying here with him doesn't seem right, especially because I'm hiding it from Ava. „you're not doing anything here . . . we're here together." He says in an attempt to ease my nerves but it doesn't work. „Yeah ,I guess." I weakly reply. „night." He simply says before turning to face away from me. My heart drops a little, it almost feels as though he couldn't care less about me being here with him and lying to my best friend. Maybe this isn't what I wanted after all. „night." I say as my eyes fill with tears.