Across The Great Barrier

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"Frankie..." I heard Xavier's voice, I slowly opened my eyes and his face shown up. Napagtanto ko ang nangyari kanina kaya taranta akong napaupo sa kama. I held his shoulders and I shook him.

"X-Xav? Xav.. A-anong nangyari kay baby?" I asked him, I touched my tummy and I gently rubbed it. Shit! Baby, are you okay?

"Frank—" I cut him off.

"Xav! S-sabihin mo sa'king maayos siya... please.." I can't help but to shout, I don't know what to do kung pati sa katangahan ko, madadamay ang baby ko!

"Franki—" I looked at him na gulong gulo parin, bakit ba ayaw niya akong diretsuhin? Hindi kaya... I held his hands and I looked straight to his eyes, naramdaman kong nanggigilid na ang luha ko pero pilit kong pinipigilan para hindi sila tumakas.

"Xav naman... M-maayos siya 'di ba? S-sabihin mo please..." Pagmamakaawa ko sa kaniya, I smiled and I felt a tear fall from my eyes. He wiped it and He turned his head, may pumasok sa kwarto and it's the Doctor.

"Ms. Celestial, mabuti at gising ka na." She said and She looked at the brown envelope na hawak hawak niya.

"Doc, k-kumusta po ang baby ko?" I asked her, Kumunot ang noo niya at gulong tiningnan ako.

"Ms. Celestial wala kang baby." Anong sabi niya? Wala akong baby? Hindi kaya ang ibig niyang sabihin ay wala na akong baby? No, no!

"P-po? Wala na ang baby ko? H-hindi, hindi po.. D-doc naman!" Taranta akong pabalik balik ng tingin kay Xavier at kay Doktora. Ano bang sinasabi nila? Hindi naman ako na-stress o kaya nagkaproblema para mawala ang baby ko!

"Ms. Celes—" I cut her off when I felt my tears streaming down to my face. No, no! Ang baby ko nalang ang mayroon ako at hindi ko hahayaang pati siya mawala sa'kin!

"D-doc.. hindi naman po ako stress pero b-bakit?" I asked her, Xavier held my shoulders and gently rubbed it. Tuloy tuloy lang ang agos ng luha galing sa mga mata ko dahil sa nangyayari.

No! Siya nalang ang mayroon ako, siya nalang ang naiwan sa'kin ni Clyde! Pati ba naman siya... pati ba naman siya kukuhanin sa'kin! Tangina naman!

I leaned my head on the wall and I covered my face, I can't help but to cry harder. Ni hindi ko man lang siya nabigyan ng pagkakataon na masilayan ang mundo. Napaka walang kwenta ko talaga! Putangina Amber!

Ang tanga tanga mo!

Xavier held my face and He wiped my tears, He looked straight to my eyes and He looked at me seriously.

"Makinig ka muna." He said, sinenyasan niyang magsalita si doktora. Palayo na sana siya pero hinawakan ko ang laylayan ng damit niya, I looked at him and I gave him a please look.

"Xav... don't leave me..." I whispered, He nod and He sat down to the bed beside mine. We looked at Doktora and She sighed.

"Ms. Celestial, What I'm trying to say is you're not pregnant!" She said and She handed me a brown envelope, gulo akong tumingin sa kaniya. Ano bang sinasabi niya?! Sa kaniya nanggaling ang result and then now sasabihin niyang hindi ako buntis?

What the fuck?!

"P-po?" I asked her, She point her fingers to the envelope at kahit gulo ay binuksan ko ito. I opened it and this is my pregnancy check-up printed result last appointment.

It says that I'm not pregnant, it's negative...

Why? Last day sabi ng secretary niya buntis ako! Ano ba talaga?! Tangina.