Across The Great Barrier

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Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakauwi pagkatapos ng nangyari sa Intramuros, basta ang alam ko lang, hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko.

I know to myself that I still love Clyde, hindi naman agad agad mawawala 'yon.

Siguro kung may nararamdaman man ako ng Xavier, hindi 'yon kayang pantayan ng nararamdaman ko kay Clyde at hindi ako ganoong klase ng babae na gagamit ng iba para makalimot.

Hindi niya deserve masaktan, Ayoko.

I need air!

Kailangan kong makapag-isip isip.

I came at the mansion and as soon as I step inside it, I already heard their questions.

"Anak! Totoo bang kayo na ni Xavier?"

"Amber, Is it true?"

They both asked, I shook my head and I smiled at them. I know na gusto ni Mommy na si Clyde ang para sa'kin but in our situation, hindi na mangyayari 'yon. Habang si Mama naman, gusto si Xavier para sa'kin. Which is not impossible to happen.

but not now.

I mean, ayokong masayang 'yung pinagsamahan namin. Kasi paano kung maging kami tapos magbreak kami, sino nang tatakbuhan ko? Kung 'yung dating tinatakbuhan ko ay 'yun na 'yung nakasakit sa'kin 'di ba?

A break up can ruin our 4 years of friendship and that's so sad!

Pero kung mainlove... Why not?

"May bagong girlfriend na po si Clyde and ayaw lang po ako makita ni Xavier na mukhang kawawa sa harap nila. Kaya niya po nagawa 'yon." I said, Mommy sighed na mukhang gumaan ang loob habang si Mama naman ay napabuntong hininga dahil sa pagkadismaya.

"Amber... Are you okay?" Mommy asked, I hugged her and I just sighed.

"I'm okay, Mom." I whispered, I felt her caressing my hair so I closed my eyes. This is my home!

I'm so happy that I have two Moms, kahit na hindi na namin kasama si Papa. Masaya ako na may dalawa akong ina na gumagabay sa'kin, and I hope that this will be the start of everything...

I hope that after all what I've been through, there's still a rainbow that is waiting for me at the end of my battle...

Even though, My story ended without my first love... atleast I've learned a lot that I can apply in my future.

I will forever treasure our memories, ibabaon ko 'to sa puso ko at kakalkalin ko nalang ulit kapag gusto kong matuto.

Well, that's the reality, to let people go.

Clyde Lucas, I'm happy to say that I'm finally letting you go...

You're free now...

———2 days later—-

"Frankie! Penge akong chips!" I came out to the kitchen and I saw Xavier lying on the couch na para bang senyorito siya sa mansion na 'to.

Ang kapal naman ng mukha!

Ibinato ko ang hawak kong chips sa mukha niya, I laughed and He glared at me. I was about to ran away from him but it's too late! He already hugged me from behind!