UNWANTED ( Chresanto Love Story)

Part 84

Shaniia threw her cigar out the window because it wasn't working for her, she needed something stronger. Shaniia thought about the two baggies she had hidden in the car. Her green baggie, she knew it was some good loud and Reggie and she knew it would do the trick, but then she though of the white powder she had right underneath the seat. Shaniia felt her mouth water for it and began to reach for. Shaniia was nearly a year and a half clean and she couldn't mess this up. " Think about Romelo,  you can't loose him again, you just got him back don't do this to him" she thought in her head as she began to cry." I didn't want any of this , none of it, I should have never tutored him, I should have flunked that class, wasn't like I couldn't have passed without it." She continued on her thought all the way to Ma.August's house. When she arrived, she knocked on her door harshly till she answered

"What on heaven's earth is wrong with you knocking on my door this late, like some crazy person" Ma said sternly

"I'm getting Melo, and leaving here for good, no more bullshit", shaniia said coldly while pushing through Ma

"What do you  mean for good?" Ma questioned her

"Forever mama, I'm not  coming back, I just want my son and I wanna leave" she said while dragging her words and sighing

"Wait, wait, why? Where is Lorenz?  Does he know your leaving?" She said while worrying

"Your son? You really wanna know where your son is? He's at home," she paused, " dunk, as fuck " and she paused again, "He's at home passed out on the fucking ground because I tried to kill him" she said rushing in and out of rooms looking for her son."I tried to kill that pathetic, weak, insecure, bitch ass son of yours for putting his hands on me again," she said rushing out the room with sleeping Melo in one hand and his toy in the other." Fool me once, shame on me, fool me twice, I'm gonna fucking kill you.

It was so much for Ma. August to take in. With no warning she flopped down on the chair and held her chest. Why would Lorenz treat her like that, why was shaniia talking to her like this?

At this point Shaniia didn't care about feelings, her feeling were so hurt and broken, that she couldn't care for anyone else's

"Look Mama, I'm sorry but I just don't give a Fuck anymore, and you can tell your son farewell, and that, his daughter,  my daughter won't be in that damn boarding school anymore, all because he wanted to hide to her that he broke up with me or that's he's a fucking alcoholic. And I'm sorry you have a son that won't amount to any, and I was wrong about him. He was everything everyone said about him. I tried so hard to look pass it all but it work that long. I'll talk to you later ma but I just can't do it anymore" Shaniia said sincerely and walked out the door with Melo.

Shaniia put Melo's things in his car seat and got in and pulled off. Shaniia wanted to cry her soul out of her body but instead,  she held it in and put in her K . Michael cd.l, and listen to Bury My Heart.

"I gotta find out how I'm gonna get my baby out that school" she thought to herself.

Ma.August called her son over a million times it seemed like. She put her some clothes on and pulled her hair into a ponytail and made her way to chresanto's house. As she pulled into his driveway, she walked up to the door and knocked. After so many knocks and no answer, Ma began to think "did she really kill my son?" She thought. Without thinking, she walked in to the trashed place with glass and broken things everywhere and just to him her son in the same place Shaniia had left him. Ma.August was disgusted by seeing the liquor bottles on the ground and just to think she thought Shaniia was exaggerating. She began to shake and kick Chrestanto in his back

"Get the fuck up, right fucking now Lorenz,  I'm playing with you damn it!" She yelled at him. Chrestanto opened his bloodshot eyes to look at the anger infused on his mothers face. He tried to stand up he flopped back down as his knees kissed the floor solely.  He got back up and quickly went to the chair before he could collapse again. Chresanto tried to remember what happend last night but hid head was beating, unexpectedly,  Ma.August drug her hand across Chrestanto' s face causing a red spot to appear.

"What the hell is wrong with you huh?, sitting here partying every night and doing all this drinking, why the fuck have you been putting yo hands on that girl?" She asked him. He didn't do anything but stare into space with no emotion because this time he knows she's gone forever."Speak dammit!" She shouted while stomping her foot

"Because i needed a reason for her to leave." He said while staring off." Something told me she would come back but now I know she wont." He said blantly.

"Your damn right she's not coming back, and she took Melo so what do you have now you son of a bitch! " she yelled," she was the only woman who never used you for anything. She gave you her heart and soul and she wanted was for you to give it back. But, your so selfish you didn't care, you just wanted to care about your self and, be a naricussis that you couldn't see that, was all she wanted from you. Chresanto out of all you 28 years of living this is the worst thing you ever did." Ma.August said so hurtly that she began to sniffle," I can't even stand the sight of you anymore, not like this. Tell me chresanto, have I failed you? Have I failed you as a mother, for you to act like this?" She ask

" Mama, it has nothing to do with you" He said

" Then act like how I taught you to be then to be crawling in the trenches. I have to leave" she said as she opened the door and said one last thing before she left," Shaniia, is getting Casey from Florida" she stated

If Chrestanto didn't pay any attention to any that his mother said to him, he understood those words clearly

" She can't do that Mama, you can't let, what's wrong with you. You always supposed to be on my side mama, my side" , he said as he cried hardly and beated his chest," Why you not here for me."

Ma walked to her son and touched his cheek

"I will always be on your side, but I am going to be for what's right, and right now your in the wrong" she said before she left her son all alone in this world.