𝔼𝕣𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥? [ON HOLD]

48

"This is all my fault! Why hadn't I called you or Dad?! Now I don't know if he'll actually come back and if he does wether or not he'll hate me or you!" I scream at my wall.

"Mother fucking... DAMNIT!" I yelled while kicking the wall. It was Sunday morning, barely even that as it was 3:47 am. Dad left at 8 last night and Papa has been locked in his room ever since.

I haven't slept and barely said a word to him either. Why did he even suggest that Dad should leave?! What would it had taken him to talk it out once I was awake? Gods damn it..

I was so stressed out that I was constantly biting my nails or pulling at my hair. Why now? Did that really have to happen now? I was just about to have a normal high school experience when my home life becomes something I need to be completely focused on.

"GODS FUCKING DAMNIT. Why does everything have to be so hard?!" I screeched. I look at the time again, and read 4:54 on it. "Whyyyyyyyyy..." I whined before getting into bed.

Now I'm not gonna sleep well, not that I was going to sleep well after my parents duked it out where I could hear them. No way.

I groaned but closed my eyes, only to roll over and turn on my phone. Setting an alarm for 9 am. "Why does everything have to be so complicated?"

I whisper to myself and close my eyes. Lulling myself to sleep.

I wake up to my alarm blaring at me that I was going to be picked up in 30 minutes. I feel the bags under my eyes, they were already deeper than normal. I quickly rush around the house, getting sunblock, hats, my swimsuit, and all the floaties that the girls wanted. Packing it in a bag while I put on a simple cover up and packed another bag to sleep over at the beach.

Lastly I grabbed my phone to text Papa that I would be leaving in five minutes and that I was going to stay the night at my friends.

He reads my text but never responds.

I can't help but have a terrible feeling about leaving him alone. It's like a instinct that I needed to stay here. Like something bad was going to happen.

I simply brush the feeling off as paranoia and continue to text to Papa that I loved him.

He again reads the text but doesn't respond.

A car honks outside and I grab my bags and lock the house behind me. Jiros Dad is in the front seat with her right beside him in the passenger.

The back of the car opens and I see a few others, mostly girls but also see Katsuki. I smile a bit as we make eye contact but he frowns. Probably noticing how dark my eye bags were.

I get in the car and buckle in next to my boyfriend. Once situated the car starts and the girls begin talking again. I lean my head on his shoulder and feel as his hand wraps around my own.

"Sleep." He quietly says. I nod and yawn a bit before letting my eyes close completely. I'm woken up to the sound of a camera clicking and quiet breathing.

I open my eyes slightly to see Mina with a camera I smile slightly before she shakes me. "Lily, we're here." I hum before trying to move.

Keyword. TRYING.

I feel stuck as glue before someone wraps their arms around me, completely closing me in. I whined in protest but felt their tighten hold strong.

"Katsuki let go of me." He growls.

"Not before you tell me what happened." He sleepily says. I look around and see that Mina left a little while ago and that there was currently nobody in the car.

I sighed. "There was a giant fight." I say solemnly. "Between my parents I mean. Not to say that there wasn't any yelling directed towards me for a little... but their fight was worse."

"What happened?" He asked me softly. I liked this side of him, it was when I felt the most safe and protected that he used his softer side with me.

"Papa banished Dad from the house for an hour. Then Dad got mad, and banished himself from the house for a week."

I felt Katsuki's heart skip a beat, before it started to go faster. "You don't know where one of your old men are?"

I shake my head, "I want to believe that this wasn't my fault.. but I know it is. If only I had people that I was walking with yesterday this wouldn't have happened."

He sighed but brought me closer. "That wasn't your fault you dumbass. Adults can be stupid and not know how to deal with messy situations, they're not fucking perfect. But I know for a damn fact that the reason your Dad left wasn't your fault."

The words seemed to hit me and tears start at my eyes at his observation.

"He'll be back, I saw the way that he looked at you yesterday. You and your other Dad are his world, I could see it. He was just scared."

I looked up to my boyfriend, his eyes were glazed and it seemed he was speaking from truth and experience. He looked a little out of it until it he seemed to come back and look me in the eyes.

He smiled a little before pecking me on the forehead, I smiled back a little after.

"Cmon, I wanna see that swimsuit."

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A/n: Bitch. This was sad to write.

I'm sad now.

I go stress eat.

Adults really can be stupid, and I just want everyone to know that I accept and love each and every one of you bitches. 👀💚

I hope you can forgive me for all the sadder chapters. 💀