Make Me Believe (ASHLEY 4) ☑

Chapter 30

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Beauty is brave outside but very scared inside, madali siyang matakot sa mga bagay bagay pero walang nakakaalam, and now she is letting those fears go and let everyone know. And she hoped that everyone can understand her. She hoped.

Nagdaan ang mga araw at para sa akin ay para akong nakulong sa isang napakagandang panaginip, araw-araw akong sinusundo at hinahatid ni Rogue, lagi siyang gumagawa ng paraan para hindi magtapos ang isang araw na hindi kami nagkaka-usap, lagi niyang sinasabi sa akin ang mga nangyari sa araw niya, bawat pagkikita namin ay wala siyang sinasayang na segundo na hindi iparamdam sa akin ang pagmamahal na sinasabi niya. And its overwhelming.

Hindi na ako umuuwi sa bahay, Bumili ako ng condo unit na malapit lang sa hospital dahil sa mga nagdaang mga araw din ay mas napapadalas ang pag-ataki ng sakit ng anak ko, and thats the dark side of my dream. At inaatake lang naman ang anak ko kapag nababanggit ko ang patungkol sa ama niya, sa tuwing sinusubukan kong buuin ang isa sa mga pangarap ko, I want to tell Rogue about Dyesebel but I know once he learn about her theres a possibility that he want to meet our daughter, and it scares me, dahil baka mas matindeng pag-atake ng sakit niya.

I sigh before answering my phone. "Yes, what is it troy?"

"I want to send a gift for you. "

Pina-ikot ko ang mga mata ko dahil sa inis. "It's midnight! Alas dos pa! Wala ka bang orasan?!"

Natawa naman siya, and it makes me frown, nababaliw na ba siya? "I just wanted to say thank you, I finally get my revenge I've been wishing to get. Bukas ko nalang ipapabigay ang regalo ko para sayo, matulog ka na ulit, pamangkin."

"Don't call me that, its gross." I said in disgusted tone.

Mas natawa siya dahil sa sinabi ko. "You prefer being called niece than pamangkin? It's just the same."

"Yeah but it's gross to hear you call me pamangkin. Mas kaya ng mga tenga kong marinig ang neice kaysa itagalog mo." Sabi ko at pinatay na ang tawag.

I tried to sleep again but I failed, and all thanks to the old hag troy. Kaya imbes na tumulala lang sa kisame ay bumangon ako, at nagtimpla ng kape, Hindi ako mahilig magkape pero kapag wala akong magawa ay sinusubukan kong gawin ang mga hindi ko hilig kaya nagtimpla ako. Naglakad ako papuntang balkonahe dala ang tasa ng kape, I sat on the plastic chair as I admire the stars, they look like they twinkle, but they actually don't.

Star's brightness never twinkles just like what it seems, the outside of our planet has so many dust and particles, earth is rotating while the stars are steady on its place, as the earth rotates together with the dust and other particles, it made the stars looks like twinkling, but its not true, its never been true. And as for falling or shooting star, Stars really fall when their light was about to be gone but it never can make your wish granted, its all lie. But without those lies, no one will appreciate the stars, no one will be amazed by how it shines then automatically twinkles, no one will be standing in the middle of the night hoping to see a falling star so that they can make a wish, no one can appreciate them. Definitely no one.

Wala sa sariling napangiti ako ng may nakita akong bituing nahulog, I let myself do what I used to do when I was still believing the lies about the stars. I closed my eyes, enchant my full name, and birthday before wishing.

'I wish the people I love to have infinite happiness.'

I nearly jump when I heard a knock on my door, pakiramdam ko ay humiwalay saglit ang kaluluwa ko sa aking katawan dahil sa gulat, this is one of my weakness, I get easily startled. Nilapag ko ang hawak kong mug at kinalma muna ang sarili saka binuksan ang aking pinto. My eyes widened when I see its Rogue, he looks uneasy with his pajamas on.

I look at him with amusement as I open my door wider. "Naligaw ka ata ng kama." Pabiro kong tanong.

Hindi na ako nagulat ng inasang hakbang niya ang pagitan namin at lumapat ang labi niya sa labi ko. I encircled my arms around his neck and respond to his kisses, I kissed him with the same capacity he gave me. Nakaramdam ako ng panghihinayang ng pakawalan niya ang labi ko at masuyo akong niyakap.

There's something about his embrace that makes me frown and feel uneasy, I can sense fear. Maingat ko siyang niyakap at tinapik sa likuran. "What's wrong?" I ask.

He dosen't answer, instead he hugged me tighter.

"Rogue?"

"I had a nightmare." He took a deep breath. "And I got very nervous, cause it feels so true, it scares the hell out of me." He said like he was about to cry.

I hushed him while slowly caressing his back."What is it? Your nightmare,  what is it?"

"Its not important, I don't want you to know, I'm afraid that it might come true if I'll tell you. " I can feel that he really is scared, so I didn't bother to ask for more.

I let him hug me until his heart content, at dahil mukhang puyat pa siya ay niyaya ko siyang matulog, hindi naman siya umangal, sa totoo nga ay ng makahiga siya sa kama ko ay agad niya akong niyakap at agad din siyang nakatulog. And because He's with me, I felt warm and secured, At di malamang dahilan ay kusang bumalik ang antok ko, isiniksik ko ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya at natulog ulit.

Nagising ako dahil sa may nararamdaman akong dumadampi sa mukha ko, and when I open my eyes I saw Rogue smiling at me, he gave me a peck on the lips before saying a thing. "Goodmorning, baby"

His natural scent filled makes me want to hug him closer and inhale it, and I didn't stop myself from doing it.

I smiled and greet him too, at ng subukan kong kumawala sa yakap niya ay mas hinigpitan niya pa ito, I look at his face, he kissed me passionately and let go of my lips with a smile. Nakangiti siya pero nakikita ko ang takot sa mga mata niya, his eyes were telling me that he don't want to let go of me cause something might happen, at ayaw kong ganito siya palagi, wheter its because of his nightmare or not. This is one of the reason why I hesitate to accept Rogue, ayaw kong mabuhay siyang puno ng takot.

"Rogue..."

"Yes, baby?" Malambing niyang sabi.

Masuyo kong hinaplos ang pisnge niya. "Can you do something for me?"

"Anything for my baby."

"Don't be scared anymore. You already know that my life is not normal, I might die today and I'm lucky if I'm still alive at the end of the day. At gusto kong makalimutan na may panganib palagi kapag kasama ka kaya please wag mo naman iparamdam sa akin na pwede akong mawala maya-maya."

Nanatili siyang nakatitig sa mga mata ko, na para bang may hinahanap siya sa mga ito, tumango siya pero hindi parin nawala ang pag-aalala sa mga mata niya.

"Can you do something for me too?"

"Mhh, what is it?" Nakangiti kong tanong.

"Wear the ring I gave you." Maingat niyang sabi na nagpatigil saglit sa pagtibok ng puso ko.

Ako naman ang napatitig sa kaniya. What does he mean?

"And promise me." My heart beats wilder with the way he look at me, may kakaiba sa titig niya na hindi ko maipaliwanag, it makes me want to jump while making those girly sounds or giggle just like a teenager when they're crush stared at them.

"What?" Halos pabulong kong tanong.

"Promise me that you'll marry me next week."

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