LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO

47.Getting Normal

Sid's POV

It's been two week since we short out our issues and misunderstandings and got back to our normal self, or whatever you call it, Sana was still a bit dull and silent, she was not that chirpy bubbly girl as she used to be three weeks ago, I knew better not to force her and decided to let her heal at her own pace, we met a few doctors and they suggested that her depression , which she had fought years to repress is hitting back but she is fighting it with more power and if we keeps doing what we are doing the depresion will not be able to over power her will. But all I did in this was being normal, love her the way I did before all of this, talked to her everyday about random topics and behaved as normal I can, whatever there's that helping her fight the depresion was completely her own will power.
We did talk about the issues surrounding us, we talked about  the kids and how we want to take our relationship forward, what we want and expect from each other and from our self.

Flashback:

Sana is still sitting on my lap , we are sitting in complete silence , the only sound coming 8s the chirping of birds and her heartbeat, then she said something softly, I couldn't make out what it was, so I held her face and made her look into my eyes and ask her , first she did not wanted to repeat but after insisting for a while she said "Did you felt bad???
Tujhe bura laga na?"

I asked her for what and she said " Did you felt bad, when you got to know that the result was negative?" She further said that  she saw me upset quite a number of times in these few weeks , she asked me,   was I exited about the baby and did I wanted the baby and when the result came negative, did I have felt bad about it???
I didn't knew what to say, I was sad and upset but the reason was something else,  so I asked how did she felt about it,

"To be really honest I don't remember how I felt when I saw the test result all I thought was how you gonna react on it what will you think about it and how  am I gonna tell you about it .I don't remember how I felt, I don't even remember if I was happy or sad seeing the result"
Hearing her reply was a kind of shocker to me , that one of the most important decision of her life , she did not thought about herself but she only thought about me and got ill thinking about my reaction , I hold her close to me kiss her forehead and told her the truth "For a moment yes felt bad when I saw the test result, yes I had started expecting the baby and I did made few plans about all three of us____"

Her face fell and her eyes showed the pain she was trying hard to hide.

"__but most importantly I was concerned and worried about you , your choice ,your decision, so I had already made up my mind for whatever you want to decide and to tell you the truth I no matter what no matter when no matter who don't want anyone but you forever I cannot think of myself with anyone else with you please never leave me and please don't ever not talk to me avoid me or ignore me I cannot they are the silence of yours love you more than you can ever think"

Flashback ends

Sana is sleeping on the floor beside me and the TV is still on, the calmness on her mind and the glow on her face is back again, though she is still not perfectly alright but she is showing progress in her physical health as well as her mental health . Today we made lunch together and watched a movie while lying on the bedroom floor, Sana was fast asleep by the time the movie ended and now it was time for us to go get ready for the get together dinner, we all are stuck in this lockdown and my mom is  out of country and so is Vikas's family so we decided to call a few close friends and have a couple get together dinner at Vikas's place tonight. Vikas knew about sana's health though no one actually knew the real reason behind it, everyone thought it's work stress and everyone tried Thier best to cheer her up, so when Vikas got to know that she is feeling better he volunteered to throw a get together dinner for her to uplift her mood. And I can't be more thankful to him.