beside you | wroetoshaw

eleven

i was going on a day out with talia today, just to have a nice girls day out for once. i did light makeup and decided to leave my hair naturally wavy, i threw on a long sleeve white top with some denim jeans - i wanted to make more of an effort today.

i was almost done getting ready as i heard a knock on the door, i was confused to who it could be as i was meeting talia at simons flat beforehand.
i opened the door to see a smily ethan.

"oh hello" i said surprised. "hiya em, oh you look nice, where you off to?" he said, "thank you i'm going out with talia soon, you okay? what do you need?" i asked wondering why he was here.

his face dropped ever so slightly when i said i had plans "oh i was just coming round to chill but if your busy it's fine" he mumbled

"well, when i'm back you can come over. but next time drop me a text beforehand behz" i said as i was locking the door on the way out

i ended up walking with ethan as he lives in the same flats as me, just a few floors down.

"so where are you and talia off to?" ethan asked

"not too sure yet, just going for coffee and a catch up. a little girls day out since we spend all of the time surrounded by you men" i giggled
"never thought about it like that to be honest, you do spend a lot of time with us" ethan said while pressing the lift button to take us down

"can i ask you something" i said i a serious tone.
"of course, you can ask me anything" ethan replied in the same tone.
"in the lie detector test for sidemen sunday, what did jj mean by 'i see the way you look at some girls' then he looked right at me?" i said timidly incase i got the wrong end of the stick

ethans eyes widened and he took a deep breath. "it wasn't anything serious, i've just said to jj i think you are really fit a few times and hes starting to think that i like you."

"what? really you think i'm fit?" i asked jokingly while posing

"lad of course, but i said to him i'd never do that to boggo" ethan explained
"but me and harry aren't together?" i said confused

"there must be something going on though em, and it's confusing everyone-" ethan began rambling
"it's confusing me as well but me and harry are just friends" i put my hand on his arm stopping him from talking as the lift door opened on his floor.

"i'll see you later em!" ethan shouted while walking away

as the doors closed i sighed angrily, everything i do recently has always lead back to harry in some way and if it's not me talking about him someone else is.

-

i knocked on the door of jj and simons flat, waiting for someone to let me in and soon enough jj opened the door engulfing me in a hug.

"how are you em?" jj asked as we made our way to the living room

"yeah i'm good, excited to have a girly day not going to lie" i admitted

jj walked into the kitchen making his g-fuel drink, "so harry?" he raised his eyebrows.
i had enough of it at this point, i genuinely didn't want to talk about anything anymore. "awh leave it jide, it feels like he's all a speak about with people now" i groaned. he raised his hands up in surrender "sorry, sorry"

finally simon and talia came out of his room, jj told me they were quickly filming a video but i didn't really mind as i was earlyish

"i'm so sorry to keep you waiting, shall we go?" talia said while getting her shoes on. i nodded my head and stood up walking towards the door.

"have fun you guys and few guys are coming over later for a drink, nothing massive so if you want to come here after you're welcome to" simon said just as we were about to leave
"sounds fun, i'll think about it" i smiled at him and talia pulled me out the door.

-

after a few hours of shopping, me and talia started getting hungry so we decided to pop into nando's for a quick bite to eat before we head back to simon and jjs.

"mate i'm actually craving a chicken wrap" talia exclaimed while we were waiting in the queue to order.
"so am i, honestly i'd eat anything at this point" i said holding my belly

once we ordered we sat down, i felt the pain in my legs from walking about all day (something i wasn't used to doing). 

"okay so i know you said you're over hearing about harry, but i really need to tell you something" talia said shyly incase i would flip after telling her not to bring him up today.
i huffed seeing how serious she was "go on"
"so that day we filmed for simons channel, after you left we all, well I, kind of asked harry about you. he told us that really does like you, and that really doesn't want to loose you to someone else" she explained

i felt butterflies in my stomach which is something i was used to having whenever hearing harry talk nicely about me. "really?" i said in disbelief, talia nodded her head vigorously. "do you like him?" she asked the dreaded question

i thought for a second, and i really truly did.
"yes, of course i do" i smiled

talia began clapping her hands together and dancing out of joy, causing me to laugh at her embarrassing herself in a random nando's

"you should tell him, maybe you two could be serious" she put her hands on mine
"you know what" i stopped to think "i think i actually will"

"YESSS my ship is sailing!!!" she danced once again, "ship? oh stop" i lighty hit her arm from across the table

"yes, my ship, 'harmilia'." she laughed
"HARMILIA" i burst out into hysterics at the bad attempt of a ship name. "you are something else talia"