beside you | wroetoshaw

twenty-three

i woke up, slightly panicking as i wasn't in my usual surrounding of harry's room or mine but calmed down at the sight of tobi cooking in the kitchen.

"goodmorning em" he said once he noticed i was awake

"morning tobi" i replied while opening my phone, maybe hoping there would be a text from harry, or ons of the cals, but there was nothing.

"how you feeling?" he said putting food on a plate

"fuck knows man, i-i don't even know anymore" i said rubbing my eyes

"so are you going to explain what happened last night that you had to come here at four in the morning?" tobi asked bringing over a bacon roll

"well last night as you know i was meant to be staying at harrys last night, but he went out instead blah blah blah. so i woke up on his couch and him, lux and freezy came in absolutely wasted and harry started an argument with me about ethan" i took a deep breath trying to remember the little details of last night, even though i would rather just forget it all.

"i got annoyed and we just kept going at each other's throats until he said he- that he c-couldnt do it anymore" i said taking a bite of the roll

tobi stood there with his mouth wide open
"couldn't do it anymore? as in, be with you?" he asked

i nodded my head.
"apparently he still isn't ready, which was the whole point of us taking it slow. i said that to him but he just said he was sorry, then i stormed out and texted you" i mumbled

"oh my gosh, what the fuck" i said throwing his hands on his head

"i know"

"are you going to speak to him about it?" he said returning to the kitchen

"this may sound selfish but if anything i think he should speak to me first. after all he was the one deciding to end us, again, if he doesn't mean it he'll speak to me and if he doesn't speak to me well ill just have to get on with it won't i" i said taking another bite, trying to stifle my tears

"yo i rate that, you're taking this well. doesn't make it any better of course, harry's a dick and i don't understand him sometimes. did someone maybe say something to him that made him change his mind?" he asked

"not that i know of, maybe katie came over and just got into his head, or maybe one of the boys said something." i said trying hard to think about how only the morning before i was wrapped in harry's arms.

"maybe, i'll ask about but i won't make it obvious" tobi said sitting down across from me

"it just weird how he done a 180 in such a short space of time, like yesterday morning he was himself, he was harry. i don't know who that was last night" i said feeling a tear fall out but wiping it away before tobi noticed

"yeah it's mad, i have a sidemen shoot today anyway so i'll ask about" he said typing on his phone

"oh shit when do i need to leave?" i asked, scared i was intruding

"oh no, you can leave whenever i'm not bothered." he said looking at the television.

"i'll probably leave soon anyways, i feel absolutely disgusting" i said getting up to put the plate into the dishwasher

"so what are you filming today?" i asked sitting back down next to him

"tinder in real life, not looking forward to it though" he said

"what how? that sounds quite cool"

"i'm just shit at talking to girls, and i'm small so that's a disadvantage" he joked causing us both to laugh