beside you | wroetoshaw

twenty-two

everyone was finally awake, and just chatting about random shit. i didn't exactly get involved in the group conversations but i never usually do anyway.

i decided that i wanted to leave a little early, i felt a bit down and to be honest i just wanted to be alone right now.

"i think i'm just going to get heading home the now" i said standing up

"what why?" talia asked

"just feel a little tired t" i said putting my shoes on, about to open the door until tobi and ethan ran up to me.

"are you sure you are okay?" tobi asked going in for a hug

"yeah, i'm just probably going to go back to harry's and wait for them coming back" i nodded my head

"do you want us to take you, you seem a bit tired to be driving" ethan said resting his hand on my shoulder.

"i mean if you want to, since we are all going to the same tower" i said shrugging my shoulders, and as soon as i said that the pair started getting their coats and putting their shoes on.

"we are off as well guys, see you all soon" ethan shouted causing everyone to say goodbyes

once me, tobi and ethan had gotten to the car i sat in the back as ethan climbed into the drivers seat, starting the car. almost as soon as the car started moving i felt my head slowly falling and my eyes failing to stay open.

what felt like 2 minutes later i was being shaken, i woke up to see tobi and ethan laughing at me while trying to wake me up.
"fuck off im tired" i scolded and got out the car, following the boys to the lift.

"do you want us to wait with you until harry gets back or will you be okay yourself?" tobi asked as the lift reached harry's floor.

"is sure i'll be fine, i'll probably just be asleep anyways" i laughed and got off saying goodbye to the two boys who stayed on.

i walked down the long cold corridor, rummaging through my pockets trying to find my keys and almost regretting my decision to come here while unlocking the door.

"harry? cal?" i called out at hopes that someone was home, but no reply.
i huffed and sat myself down on their couch, putting netflix on and picking my original favourite -skins- but it wasn't long after i put it on that i felt myself slowly slipping into slumber once again.

-

i was awoken by the sound of the door shutting. i rubbed my eyes to see harry, lux and cal stumbling through the door laughing, but only stopping once they saw me.
i felt all three pairs of eyes on me, making me slightly uncomfortable and started getting nervous about how this was going to go

"i thought you were not coming tonight?" harry said while the others went into the kitchen.

"well here i am" i smiled at him, only for him to stop looking at me and not say anything.

"what wrong" i asked standing up, putting my arm on his shoulder

"nothing" he said brushing my hands off him

i stood there, awkwardly, at the fact this is probably one of the first times he's rejected me even touching him.

"right" i said sitting back down, putting my attention back on the television

"how was ethan" harry asked crossing his arms

"you can't be serious harry, i told you, it was nothing" i said not even looking at him, considering how childish he was being

"fucking sure" he mumbled under his breath while turning around to walk away

"what is it?" i asked annoyed

"i've said it's fucking nothing" he shouted back, continuing to walk away

"well it must be fucking something if you are being this pathetic about it harry" i shouted back standing up

he turned back around and walked towards me

"i'm not being fucking pathetic, it's you that is spending time with him instead of me" he shouted angrily

"i'm fucking here right now aren't i? if i wanted to be with him i would be at his instead. i wasn't here earlier so YOU could spend time with your family" i said pushing my index finger into his chest, something i've noticed i do whenever we argue

"look emilia, we can't fucking argue like this when we aren't even properly together yet" harry said shoving his head into his hands

"you started arguing with me, you were the one who started being off with me" i said sitting down replicating harry's actions by putting my head in my hands

"look, maybe we just shouldn-" harry started

"no, harry, it's one argument. we will be fine by tomorrow morning" i was getting scared he would end things between us before they had even properly started

"i-i can't, i'm not ready." he said finally taking his hands away from his face.

"that's why we aren't together yet, we are taking it slow. i'm not forcing you to be with me, just please harry" i begged him not to do what i knew he was going to

"i'm sorry emilia" he hung his head, not even looking at me

in those moments i couldn't tell if i wanted to burst out crying and the ground to swallow me or if i wanted to kill
him. of course none of them could happen.

"fuck you" i said, taking off one of his hoodies i had on throwing it at him.

i walked out of the apartment, slamming the door behind me. what the fuck just happened.
i checked my phone to find out it was 4 o'clock in the morning, the garage for the building opened at 6 so there was no way of me getting home.
i decided to text tobi, maybe he could still be up.

emilia hayden
tobi, i know it's late but i have no where to go. could i crash at yours for tonight? x

i bit my lip sitting on the steps at the end of harry's flats corridor. not even feeling anything, until a single tear fell from my eye, making me realise everything that just happen. and that's when i began sobbing.
that was until my phone buzzed

tobi brown
you're lucky my ringer was on, and of course you can. i'll open the door now x

i huffed out of relief.
i quickly stood up and ran down two flights of stairs to tobis flat, opening the door to see him sitting on the couch waiting for me.

"hey emilia" he said standing up and giving me a hug

"hi tobi, thank you for letting me stay here" i thanked him

"of course, you're always welcome. but can i just ask why you are here at 4 am and not at harrys?" he said getting some blankets out of his cupboard

i frowned remembering what just happened, i felt myself tear up once again.

"you know what, you look upset about it. i'll let you sleep and you can tell me in the morning okay?" he said as he gave me another hug leaving me in the living room

i nodded at him before he left and laid on the couch, where i would be sleeping for tonight.

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