A Wife's Tears(Book 1)

Chapter 41

Pumasok na kaming dalawa at super awkward ng atmosphere namin. Dahil siguro hindi ko sinagot ang tanong nito saakin kaya ang awkward. Ako lang siguro ang nakaramdam ng awkwardness ngayon siguro si Aziel ay hindi.

Kumuha ako ng maari kong isuot para sa pagtulog. At ngayon ay nahihirapan  akong pumili dahil wala akong pajama na dala. Puro silk at satin nighties na maninipis. Baka sabihin pa ni Aziel na inaakit ko siya and everytime na matutulog ako ay hindi naako nagsusuot ng bra at dahil dito si Aziel matutulog I have no choice but to wear a bra.

Pumasok ako ng bathroom at iniwan siya ng walang paalam. Uminit kasi bigla ang pisngi ko kaya hindi naako nagpa-alam na na maligo dahil nakita ko itong naghuhubad ng kanyang suot na pantaloon at nakahubad na rin ito ng kanyang damit. Ganoon pa rin pala si Aziel hangang ngayon boxer pa rin pala ang sinusuot nito kapag natutulog.

Ipinilig ko ang aking ulo at ng mawala ang mga sinful thoughts ko. Shit lang nagkakasala ako bigla dahil sa nakita masyado na yata akong tigang at pinagnanasahan ko si Aziel. Sa six years na malayo ako sa kanya ay ni minsan ay wala akong pinagnasahan na ibang lalaki kundi si Aziel.

Lumabas ako ng bathroom na tuyo na ang aking buhok at nakabihis naako. Aziel is still wide awake I think he is thinking something very deep because he didn't notice that I am out of the bathroom. I sighed and sit in the other of side of the bed.

"What are you thinking?" Halatang nabigla ito ng magtanong ako sa kanya so confirm he is thinking something deep.

"Valencia I waited for you for six years. And I am very sorry especially those years I abuse you and sorry if I hurt you the day we talk. I am very sorry my love. I am very sorry I am just blinded. I am very very sorry for everything even though you already forgave me I am still very sorry" gusto ko ring umiyak ng makitang may naglandas na luha sa kanyang pisngi.

"I moved on Aziel so please forgave yourself also. Aziel I never hated you because you know what even all the pain you caused I'm still thinking of you. I always ask this question, Did Aziel eat breakfast, lunch or dinner? Did Aziel sleep? What he is doing? And go on even though I will know that you have someone now I would be happy for you.

"I'm very sorry Valencia, mom blame me for everything because mom knows that I am lying at her when I told her that you are seeing someone else she just wouldn't believe. Until now mom is very angry and she doesn't want to talk to me even dad is also blaming me. Valencia when the time you finally gave up and you leave me that is also the time that I lose everything because I realized that you are my everything".

"Just please stop saying sorry. Kung sasabihin mo uli iyan hindi na kita pagwarin kaya stop saying sorry na" sabi ko dito.

I don't know but now I have the urge to hug Aziel tight. Kaya tumayo ako at naglakad papunta sa kanya at niyakap ko ito. Niyakap naman ako nito pabalik at naramdaman ko rin ang halik na ginawa nito saaking noo at sa aking buhok. We hugged each other for half an hour I think.

"Please let me see mommy I miss her so much and I will say sorry to her" marahan itong tumango.

Ang ending tabi kaming natulog. Nasa gitna ako ng mga ito at si Aziel naman ay nakayakap saakin. I love this feeling right now I just hope this wouldn't last. I feel safe and comfortable with the arms of the man I love the most. Nakatulog ako ng may ngiti saaking mga labi. At nagising rin ako sa mga halik na binibigay saakin ng aking anak pero ang weird dahil may labi na mas malaki saaking anak.