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♎︎ ᴀᴛʟᴀɴᴛᴀ, ɢᴇᴏʀɢɪᴀ 𒊹︎1:25 ᴀᴍ ♎︎

"Why you up?" My mama came into my room causing me to look up from my computer.

"Catching up on school. Why you up?" I shrugged as she sat on my bed next to me.

"Can't sleep. You talked to your daddy?" She asked and I shook my head.

"Nope I didn't respond to what he last said to me and that was like the other day." I said continuing to do my assignment.

"What happened? Not like I care or anything." She gave a tense look causing me to laugh.

"He said is that I was an ungrateful and disrespectful ho." I rubbed my ear against my shoulder as she rubbed my back.

When I get nervous, sad or mad I tend to rub my ear against my shoulder. It's how I stop myself from doing something or calm myself down.

"Aww baby if anything he's an ungrateful and disrespectful bitch that's locked up eating noodles and peanut butter." She pulled me into her chest laying us back.

"I miss my old daddy." I cried feeling hot tears roll down my eyes.

"I know honey I know. He's gone though and you tryna get him back isn't helping your mental health you know." She rubbed her hands through my hair.

"I hate him for what he did to me." I cried harder looking at her.

"I understand."

"Why he had to do me like that? I was only 10 and had to deal with trauma and still dealing with it. That's horrible I pray my kids and my sisters kids don't have to go through that because that hurts a person. What does a 10 year old look like having PTSD from her daddy?"

"But you grew from the pain honey."

"No mama the pain still there, I cover the pain with a smile."

"Xy'air you couldn't help that you were there at the wrong time, that's his fault that he let you stay in the room watching."

"I feel like a pussy." I wiped my eyes causing her to laugh.

"Keenon blue heart would like to FaceTime." Siri read out. I grabbed my phone and declined the call.

"Who's Keenon?" My mama asked.

"Mama stay out my business. You don't see me asking you who Andrew is."

"Girl until you leave my house, you business is my business. Who's Keenon?"

"My homie."

"That ain't your damn homie."

"How you gonna tell me?"

"Because I know you. You ain't got friends except Kendriana."

"I'm moving out." I shook my head causing her to laugh.

"I believe it. I'm surprised your sisters ain't leave yet but I know you gonna leave."

"Oh for sure. When I get enough saved up which I'm close, I'm out this mug."

"Okay don't brag bout it. You about to hurt my feelings." She pretend to wipe a tear causing me to laugh wrapping my arms around her.

"You can still come see me sometimes. Only if I open the door though." I sighed and she slapped arm.

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