The Daughter Of Batman •The First Installment

•Part 17• Shattered

Constance's POV

Mount Justice; October 23rd, 17:21 EDT

M'gann stirs her bowl of mix silently, while Kaldur leans against the counter behind her, Wally slumps at one of the chairs, Artemis leans against the back of one of the chairs, and Robin Gar Rachel and Richard sat on the couch while I sat on the counter next to Kalduar...All of them silent and stuck inside their own heads. Non of us have spoken about what happened. We're all to afraid to speak. I can't even look at my dad or Hank cause of it. All I see is their death

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In the Training Room, Red Tornado, Martian Manhunter, and Captain Marvel watch over the teens worriedly on the screens.

They all turn to see Batman entering via zeta tube
Recognize: Batman; 0-2

"How are they?" the Dark Knight asks immediately.
"I am still shaken by what you and I have wrought. One can only imagine what these youths fair." Manhunter says gesturing to the holo screens that they're watching the Team on.
" I know our virtual reality training simulation went badly," he at least has the decency to look down as he thoroughly understates it. "but I'd hoped the team would've rallied by now."
Manhunter looks surprised, while Captain Marvel looks annoyed with Batman. "Trauma tends to linger, as I know you know, my friend."
Batman shrinks under his friend's words before looking up with a curious raise in his cowl. "Black Canary?"
"She has her work cut out for her." Manhunter says lowly.

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I sighed as I sat on the counter. Canary was here today to talk to us. To get us to "open up" but I don't see it going well Wally was first. The it was Artemis. then Kal. then Richard. Gar and Rachel went in together. Not wanting to go alone. That left me Megan Robin and Conner left.
When Gar And Rachel came out they said it was Conners turn to go in.
After he came out he walked off clearly angry. Then it was Robin. He came out even more silent the. He had been. Then it was Megan. When she came out she was in tears and sat with Artemis who cuddled her trying to sooth her. Then it was my turn...

Black Canary sits in one green chair across from Me in my own green chair, she keeps her gaze on me while I looks down at the floor.

"I can only imagine how devastating it was losing your friends, in essence, your family convinced all the time it was completely real." she says, her voice wavering a little as she calls the Team family, I stay silent as I try hard not to break down for the hundredth time since yesterday. I've barley stopped crying. I've refused to eat. And I can't sleep without replaying it all over again...
I'm a hot mess. I barley got dressed. Throwing on a white T-shirt. Black pants. Black shoes and a black sweater. No makeup. Hair is a mess of curls. I just... I'm just to sad... to try...

"I'm sure it must have been horrible for you." she waits a moment, seeing if I'll respond. "I understand. You're Batman's Daughter. You're not supposed to have feelings of sadness or vulnerability." She states and i scoff at that. "Constance. I am here to help you. All of you. But I can only do that if you open up to me..." she says and I shake my head as the tears fall... "Constance..." she whispers as she comes over to me. Squatting in front me. A hand laying on mine. and that's when I break...
"I thought the hardest thing I had to go through. Was my mom dying... and my transition after I found o it the real story... but this.... this is a nightmare... you're right I am Batman's daughter. I'm suppose to keep myself in check... hence why I left after my transition... but this... I can't sleep cause I see their deaths all over again... I can't eat because I feel sick about what happened. How mine and Megan's emotional subconscious combined and got so powerful that it prevented everyone from waking up!!! I can't look at my dad or my boyfriend because I se them get vaporized and die!!! Because of me they couldn't wake up!! It's all my fault..."I cried out. More like yelled out. The pain was unbearable for me. All I wanted was to turn it off but it's not like you can shut off your emotions...
"Constance it is not your fault.. no one could have predicted that would happen your father and Manhunter never would have done it if they knew it would end like this" he says but I shake my head... "what does it matter?... I blew it... just like I blew up everything that was good in my life... I never should have joined.." I whisper as tears fall freely "what do you mean?" She asked "when my mom was dying... I left. Told her that I never wanted to see her again. At the time. I didn't actually know she was dying... we had gotten into a fight because she wouldn't let me go to some party... I told her I hated her. That she meant nothing to me and nothing good ever came from her... the next day I found out she wa sick... but it was to late... she wa shone and I never got to make things right...
I joined this team... to take you all out from the inside. To destroy all hero's... yet I got sucked in... and then I left again. Joined the Titans. Lied to them about who I was. Then I left... came back here. Stayed for two years till I found out who my mom really was. Then I had that transition. Scrared the hell out of everyone when nothing even happened!! Then I left!!! AGAIN! And now... here we are... we go through a mental experience and I manage to somehow fuck it up!!! I fuck yo everything in my life and then I leave!!! I'm a fucking mess that can't fucking learn from her shitty ass mistakes!! " I yelled as I completely lost it. I stood and ran out the door and out of the mountain. I used my fire and shot myself as far away as a could from the mountain. I stopped when I felt that I was far enough away which was somewhere in the desert... I landed and just screamed. Setting everything around me on fire as I let out all the pain. The anger. The sadness from everything that's happened to us since that brain teaser  that they put us through  I never thought I'd go through something like that  and the fact that it was all so real makes it that much harder to handle   No one will admit this, but it's all been super hard on us  Megan still cries at night  we all hear it. Conner is barley here, same with Wally and Arttemis, Tim is shutting us all out  he won't speak to anyone. Not even to Bats, Kal is well Kal no one can ever tell if he's upset or not. And me? Well we all know how I'm dealing with this  the session wit Canary did not help.... I think we need space a lot of space right now
And that's what I'm gonna talk to Bats bout it.
As I walked back to the mountain. Well flew back. After I was back I pulled Bats aside.
"I think the team needs a break. Space away from everyone for a bit. I think it would be better if we... dispersed the team till we're all ready to come back" i state and he sighs as he sits on the couch taking off his mask. He looked so sad. "I think that's for the best. A year off for everyone who needs or wants it" he said and asked me to gather the whole team.

After some time we were all gathered. I had my arms round Hank as he hugged me right. "Listen up Young Justice and Titans. After what happened with the failed exercise I have been given an idea that may help you all. An idea was presented
To me to allow anyone who wants it a Year off from being on the teams. Since genotype teams have joined as one. I thought it would be a good idea to let who ever wants a year off to go and have tangy year to heal. And who ever wants to stay can but will be doing recon and therapy. You don't have to decide now. Take some time. Make a choice. Whatever you chose will be accepted. The league will pick up all active cases that the team has left" bats said and we walked away to the living area "I'm taking it. I'm gonna go back to Mars. " M'gann said and I hugged her right. "We're taking it too" Wally said as he held Artemis hand. "I think me and Gar will take it. "Rachel said soon everyone but myself agreed to do it. As I thought bout it. This might be a good opportunity for me. Maybe I can go see my grandparents. "I will go. I think I'd like to officially meet my grandparents " I state and we all group hug. We tell nata and soo enough everyone is packing up.
I rang up my grandparents and they were so excited that I was coming to them.

This will be good right?? After everything that has happened. Maybe this is what the team needs. A break. A chance to feel normal. Set some roots. Heal. From everything. I think this is a good thing.
I just hope in a year we will come back. As a team. Work together again. As a team.

I hope....