Kizuato, the Vigilante (discontinued)

Part 41

Have you guys been ever been so afraid of having a weakness? I know that that in itself is ironic since being afraid of something is a weakness but I think it is something I fear of having and hate feeling it. The one thing I can clearly remember from when I was younger is what my mom said to me, "don't show people everything about you, don't let people clearly see the bad things about you because they'll use it against you, hurt you with it." Maybe that's why I always seem like I'm a different person when I'm out in public, a different me, something that I've built up for years to try to have people like me instead. I try to always be someone that people will like, always acting shy and nice, innocent. Now it so natural for me to act like that, so much so that I feel awkward whenever anyone comes to my house, a place where I'm usually myself, I don't know how to make act. Sometimes I hate myself for it, wish that I wouldn't have to hide the things I really like, for example my music tastes, my liking of anime, or my taste in other people. I wish I wouldn't be ashamed of who I am or who I like, or be afraid that I do like them either. To not be afraid of feeling of love, the weakness it gives me, being unable to control my feelings, can't seem to speak, the shaking of my knees and how sometimes it can sweep me off my feet. How I'm afraid that they don't like me, that I'm not good enough, too weird. Or in the case that they do like me, then I'm even more afraid, what if I mess up, I'm not good enough for them, what if I loose feelings? They deserve better, I don't deserve anything, I'm worthless, I should just go, make everything easier for everyone else, make their lives better without me in it. I, I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel sick, I feel pathetic, I feel useless. Sorry, I'll just continue on with the story now.
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-review of the last part of the chapter-

     "Hero Class 1A!" Present Mic announced as they all walked into the stadium. Then he announced the next group who walked in, "They haven't been getting as much airtime but this class also has a lot of talent as well as new recruits! Hero course, Class 1B!"

'New recruits?' Midoriya thought, looking over to the other class, many wearing cloaks similar to the ones many of the demi humans in his class, including himself were wearing. 'Strange' he thought.
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-end of recap, 3rd POV-

       "From some events that have happened recently, these new students wanted to join in the battles and who are we to hold them back!" Present Mic said explaining why there were new students here but never really giving too much detail. While he continued listing off the rest of the classes, more students entered, Midoriya not really listening too closely, more focused on Present Mic's words before.

While Midoriya was focused on the other group, many of the others in Class 1-A couldn't help but feel fear as others looked down at them from the seats in the audience. The looks, some having fear, other disgust, and others just pure curiosity. For the first time in history, demi humans were given the same playing field as the rest of the humans around them. For some, they can't help but be reminded of the times they were in those dark cold cages. Only being shown light rarely, not that it was ever a good thing since the light also brought something along with it, their other captors. Being looked at like some animal, like some strange thing under a microscope. The looks of detest and loathing, some being a look of pure evil, the devil seeming to live inside them. They couldn't help but see the similarities and some began to shake in place, others looking down, reaching for their arm and gripping it tightly.

Then soon enough, Midnight joined, standing in front of all the students and announcing that the person who represents the class, Izuku Midoriya from class 1-A, needed to give a speech. Hearing his name he was snapped out of his thoughts, his eyes going up to Midnight in shock. He then let his other persona kick in, letting his body quiver in "fear". He took his first few steps away from his classmates, looking up to the crowd in "awe". He then found his "courage" and set his eyes back onto the podium. He then walked up the rest of the stairs and stood in front of podium which almost covered up his face, which kind of pissed him off considering that for most people it's height was okay for them. He let out a sigh, because he was already on a platform, being higher than the other kids, they could only see his hair peeking out. When he heard someone snicker, probably Bakugo, it only made his anger and embarrassment rise. So even though it hurt his pride to do so, he had to stand on his tiptoes to finally be able to see everyone over the podium. That only made the explosive boy laugh even more, trying hard to keep his laughter in but failing to do so. Then in his rage, Midoriya shot him a sinister glare, smiling evilly as well, shutting the boy up real quick.

       "Ehem." He said, trying to calm himself down and to draw in everyone's attention for what he was about to say. "Hello fellow classmates, here we are, at the sports festival. Here is a place where we finally get to show ourselves and others our strengths. That either being how hard we've worked to better our quirks, how we've trained our bodies physically and gaining fighting techniques, or working on building items that will let you and future heroes to be better, as well as working on selling and marketing things here for UA. Do not forget the importance each one of us has, each of our strengths are important for the future. That being said, life isn't fair, not everyone will win by trying their best. There will be winners as there will also be losers, there's no such thing as 'everyone's a winner' like they told us when we were kids. So while someone can be a "winner", that is only a term for a certain moment, the next time something happens, the roles can easily be switched. That's why I don't like to use the terms winner and loser because it is only a term for a moment. There's no telling how a person will do in the future so I hate that it puts a label on the person like they can't be changed. The only time I can see someone as a "loser" is when they've given up, that that one loss means that nothing that they do could change how they were. So like I've said, there are winners and losers, don't let that title stay with you, improve yourself and come back stronger because who knows how strong that next opponent will be and if they be the one to break you, or to have you climb higher. Be the one to climb higher, continue to better yourself and let others see how far you've come, that is what the sports festival is for after all. Show everyone how hard you've worked, why you belong at UA, and why you are someone to be reckoned with, Plus Ultra!"