She is going to be fine , she just needs more sleep, less stress and proper eating, I heard someone saying as I tried opening my eyes ,
Oh, there she is waking up !! I heard someone saying as I fully opened my eyes and looked at the person who was talking .Infront of me I was met with my mother's face and an unfamiliar person.
Honey, you are awake, how are you feeling !! She asked me worriedly.
Water , I tell her and she took a glass filled with water and helped me drink every single drop .
" Thanks mom, I tell her. "
It's okay darling !! How am I here!! I asked her a little confused caring what had gotten into me and how I ended up on bed rest .Honey, you were heating up so bad when I got there and your useless pig insolent husband wasn't there, I just saw you sleeping on the bed with covers around you , I called an ambulance and took you to the hospital ! She explained qlittle agitated.
My heart ached even more , I felt myself breaking , it was too much, does he really hate me this much, did he forget how happy we were when we were together, how I took care of him when he got sick, and facing tough times together. ?
" I hate him so much " I felt bile rising up on my mouth , I squirmed from the bed and looking for a toilet.
It's over there , Mom pointed out !! I went in the bathroom vomited each and everything I had in my stomach, I wonder why am I like this , but I am pretty sure the answer is that , I am just disgusted with myself and my so called husband.
I washed my face but froze when I saw my reflection of myself on the mirror, " I looked like a ghost who had disspear from her own grave, " I chuckled lightly and went outside.
Wow, you look like .... " my mom said and stiffened a laugh , a ghost!! I replied to her and she burst out laughing. "
Right!
" I guess there is nothing to compare you with with that horrondous look . "
She jokes and looked at her nails and made a side eye contact with me making us both burst into a fit of laughter ." oh lord ! "
Mom , stop it I tell her , So what did the doctor say!! I ask her making my way on the bed . Eat that food first , she instructs pointing on the plate and a bowl of hot soup .
Okay !! I mumbled and started eating the meal .
" This is so delicious , I trailed off "
Delicious huh? Not even a thank you for me You ungrateful brat .
I cooked it for you before I decided to come to your house , I knew you needed this . She lightly explains looking anywhere but me .
I nod my head understanding . And added , " I am no ungrateful " with a roll of an eye making her scoff ,
Yea yea yea , she replies rolling her eyes .
So tell me what did the doctor say!
Not a big deal, how long were you not having enough sleep!? She asks .
" A week now or so ,I mumbled and freeze looking at her. "
Why do you put yourself in so much pain !! Why katrina !! My mom asked me with concern and I stuffed my mouth with alot of food that I have been eating. " Stop stuffing your mouth like that , there's plenty , you may get hiccups or choke " she spat angrily and gave me a glass of juice annoyed.
Thank you,I mumbled and she gave me a glare, " mom, I am sorry I won't do it again I tell her suddenly after a sip "
You better , because I will make sure that your skinny bones turn out into a fat potato bear, she tells me.
" But mom, I am not skinny , I pouted as I look at her ," Hmmpf, says the one who looks like a zombie infront of my eyes , she shrugged away and looked at me with a sneer .
Soon her voice changed into a concern,Motherly mode alert!
You have to understand, sometimes we have to let it go but that doesn't mean you have to torture yourself, not having enough sleep , not eating your meals on time, " what do you think of yourself?" A loveless , emotionless machine !!? "
Mom, I am sorry for making you worried , Its okay my baby but please you have to love yourself first, she tells me and a tear threatened to slip from her eye!! She acts strong but in reality my pain is also hers ,
I realised something, I wanted to go far away from here ..I wanted time .
I want to be more stronger ,and change my environment too . I look at my mom's heartbroken face as she tried to smile and look at me but she failed .Mom, can I ask you for something !! What is it my dear ? She replied quickly .
Can you please arrange up my divorce fast!! And please I want something from you mom after finalising the divorce , She looked at me quizically .
"A..are you sure!? " She asks with amusement amd unsure .
It's not late mom is it!? I ask her but she looked at me like I have grown two heads not understanding what I ameant .
" Is it too late to chase my dreams ?" I ask her quietly , after a moment of silence she broke down crying .
My dear, when i told you , you have to wake up and find yourself, I didn't tell you to go out there and do choose that sick career again. You are my youngest daughter and yet you have the sickest mind which I never had thought you could have one ,
" oh my god what should I do to change your mind ?" She asked with tears understanding my desires .
"Nothing mom !!" I just want to chase what I am looking for , and be the person I want to be, I said to her in between smiles and tears.
" I love you my dear, and I will never discourage you in this " she says and embraced my body ."
" I am going to make arrangements for this sooner, so that you could get out of here after you have finalised your divorce, she tells me with a smile after she rubbed off the tears . "
Her smile did not convince me , I know deep down she doesn't want me to drawn myself in the path that I have chosen .
Don't look at me like that, I am your mother ,and I have to be worried with your sick choices, I looked at her with a smile .
Oh my god Katrina , you are sick !! " Why are you laughing like that while you are about to sign your life in a fucking swarm " she started complaining again as tears fell from her eyes het again .It's going to be okay !! I tell her and she smiled again with tears .
I will see you later, she tells me and left me on the hospital bed with alot of thoughts in my head .Maybe this path will give me a piece of mind and will make me find my purpose ...
And what I wasn't able to get.
" I closed my eyes and let sleep consume me , I hope everything goes well these last few days " I can't wait to chase my dreams joining the force.
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The divorce
HumorAfter five years of marriage, Damon Mathews took a massive step of destroying Katrina his lively wife of ages , It was just a lovely day but ..... Alot happened..and it all ended with divorce with more guilt ,pain and a new start .. NOTE: THE B...