Katrina
We were back on the fields and we were having iurfood , I chose spaghetti , freezed salads and a bottle of water .
I ate silently looking at the other women talking and laughing with the men enjoying their meals ,
I can't help but feel sad after what I did with Conrad , I feel like he just wanted to talk to me as a friend and I overreacted but the deed has already been done,
Great that I didn't beat him up , or else I would have been wallowing in guilt , he is such a good man and my temper took the best of me .
I need to find him and apologise , I muttured and carried on eating . As I keep on staying in this place I have realized conrad was right,
I was lonely , I pushed out every body and made this tiny space and designed it only for myself .. and no one fits to be in that role than only me .
I tried making friends once but I ended up getting scared , what if they knew of who I am , ? I know every one kniws my mom with a glance , but I am too surprised on why none of these people have identified me till now ,
I mean I was on the news just few weeks ago , ?
Stop thinking .. my subconscious reminded me ,
"And it's better this way , ''I wouldn't like to be famous just because I was a daughter of a rich woaman .
Being low-key is the best medicine , silence and away from people is the best drug.
The women looked at me with side eyes , And some familiar faces that knew me too but I wouldn't blame them , In their eyes I was like a freak because I didn't know what to say when I was with them ,
I am always silent around them all ..As for that I decided to stay away from everyone , I had a peace of mind though knowing that I trusted nobody ,
This place is full of mysterious people , once I caught the other women talking about me , how silent I am , how freaky I looked becuase I couldn't talk to anybody .
In short , they ended up blowing up some very hurtful comments about me and my body shamelessly .
I don't even want to think of how I restrained myself and not pounced on them and beating them up black and blue .
It was in the night when I wanted to go and take a bath but I ended up stuck on the stall listening to their words against me , and the most shit thing is that many of those girls have never talked to me .
Sighing out loud and shaking the bitter memories , I drank a mouthful of water and chewing the last pieces of food stuck in my teeth ,
Standing up , I walked to the toilet , did my business and brushed the dirt off on my uniform ,
I am ready to go .. I mumbled and turned to get out only to meet three girls who looked smugly at me ,
Frowning , I looked at them and asked them calmly , " Can I please pass , ?"
Where to freak ?
Oh no they didn't ..
Coughing out lightly , I asked them lightly , '' what do you guys want, ?'' I was sure that this was a group who had the nerve of ganging up against me and the others just becuase we didn't talk to them ,
Women !!
"Are they even okay upstairs (mind) , ? "
Doesn't matter why we are here , I wonder why are you here with us , ?
You look like a freak who has just woken up and ended up being dumped into this place , you are not one among us ! One of them incurred pointed harshly on my chest ,
Don't touch me !! I gritted out
Or what freak ,?
I clenched my jaw and fisted my arm, I hate bullies .. I hate people like them but I have to hold myself back becuase I wouldn't want to risk it and get punished ,
No one would do shit to you .. my subconscious trailed off,
I have demons in my brain I tell you, outside I am flat no emotion and nobody can read whatever that's in mind.
"Are you all done , ?" I asked and eyed them throughly , they think this is highschool and they have every right to mess up with anyone's affair ,
"What ,?" They asked in a disbelief , they really need to go back from where they came from and graduate again .
If you think that this is highschool and you would tail in someone else's life then I assure you, you better think first before launching on somebody and make some crafty remarks about them .
I expect you guys to never talk to me ever again until we are done with these trainings because the moment any of you decide to talk to me ,
I swear ....
You swear what , ? A girl with brown hair and a very tanned complexion who I didn't know her name asked , not like I give a damn because I knew no one's name among them .
I looked at them both intimidatingly , " You will get it from me .. "
And one more thing, this is not high school !
I walked out like I owned the place after pushing them off my way leaving them stunned , if they didn't come with manners where they came from . I am pretty sure there are a lot of people who can teach them in here , they shouldn't go play around and mess with people in here ,
They have no idea who they are picking on and the last thing you are going to hear next time , they are out or beaten black and blue by some people who do not take shit from babies like them .
I walked back to my spot and felt eyes on me , narrowing my eyes I looked at the stares and found a group of men and women looking at me ,
I identified Conrad among them , but he refused to meet my eyes . Shaking my head I took out the diary that I have been walking with day and night as opened flipped pages waiting for the Saergent to come back and carry on the training,
I felt extremely uncomfortable after few minutes , I can feel eyes on me .
Frustrated I took my things and walked away from there hiding my freaky self from them .
Damn it ! I mumbled and wiped a non-existnce sweat on my face ,
For how long didn't I look myself in the mirror , ? I have no idea .. I am Sure I look as rough as my hair right now .
Contemplating whether I should tie my hair again in a tight bun ,I had to do it after feeling it getting lose now and then ,
But if the sergeant decides to show up right now then I am dead ,
Quickly I took off the cap and take a hold of my hair and comb it with my finger and tie it back with force that my scalp ached making me wince,
"Recruits line up !! " I heard the segeant's voice ,
Fuck ,why now ? ....
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