The divorce

chapter 20

Katrina pov ..

After what happened at the party , I vowed to never speak to strangers ever again,

Guess what .. ?!  That Patrick guy is a multimillionaire guy who was one of our guests and the press could not take it but take a picture of us and now it's the only gossip In the social media ,

I couldn't care less as I switched off my phone after receiving countless missed calls from Damon, I have no idea what he wants but becuase of my ego I choose not to answer him,

I mean why should I , ? He is my ex husband and he needs to grow up and stay away from me , it looks like he doesn't understand the term divorce ,

First it was at the party ... Him stalking me and now countless missed calls . I need to change my number but not anymore though , becuase today night I will be living to the camp .

Yep .. today ! I am so happy I am leaving for the millitary , I understand that I will be leaving everything behind but this is for the best and I wish that it will go the way I have planned it ,

A new beginnings ... New life , new friends and a low key life .. 

Interesting , I got out from my bed and stood on my mirror before walking to the bathroom,

I look horrible ..

Like literally so horrible ..

It's like dozens of mice bit on my hair and now it looks umm ..

Awful !! ?

Sighing out loud , which made me choke out of my breath because it was stinking I ran to the bathroom to brush my teeth. 

Whew better !! I choked out after brushing my teeth and immersed myself into the warm water . It felt so good for my skin,

It felt really ..  great that I chose to go to my room and  put head sets and put some music and come back to the warm  t water again ,

Opening my playlist , I opened one of my favourite songs by Tony Braxton ..

"Unbreak my heart .." this is one of my favourite songs with a lot of deep meaning into it , I love it though I am not a good fan of the oldies ,

But sometimes .. well I pass through and I am in love with Tony Braxton , she is amazing,

And the music started .. 

"Don't leave me all in this pain, don't leave me out in the rain,
Come and bring back my smile , come and take this pain away ...

I need you now .. to hold me now  , when the nights are so unkind ... "

The lyrics alwsy get better whenever I listen to them , they have a deep meaning and all I can say is just listen and cry out of fear , pain and the future that's ahead of me together with my good and bad decisions that I have decided of my life .

After an hour or so, I rinsed my body and went out to my closet .

I opened the closet and  took out comfy clothes which were my pants and  a shirt , and dried my hair and went out to the kitchen  with my phone on my hands ,

Honey .. how are you feeling now , ? Mom asks.

I was taken a back , because thinking of the outbursts she made yesterday night made me look at her again before replying with a small,

"Am fine ma ,"

Good to hear that .. she replies and sipped her coffe and resumes reading her newspaper .

Did you watch the news , ?

Yes I did , I replied walking to the kitchen aile and put some pancakes on my plate and went to sit beside her on the table ,

Why didn't you go to the office today , ? I ask with a slight frown ,

Well can't I stay in my own home now , ?

This woman !! I didn't mean that way ,

You are usually at the office mom, and you staying at home it feels odd . I scoffed which made her chuckle , it seems my children know me too well than myself ,

Maybe .. you are always strict with your routine combining with us .

Hmm .. she replies smugly carrying on reading the newspaper on her hands .

She stood up after few minutes and walked to her room silently,

What's with her , ?

I washed my plate and walked to my room ,

I started to fold and pack some of my things that I wanted to take with me including my favourite bras and boxers ,

Hehe .. boxers are comfy and my coochie gets a lot of air ,

A knock snapped me out of my thoughts , in walked mom with her hand bag on tow ,

Umm do you want to go out with me today , ?

Noding my head with my jaw on the ground , I followed her behind .

She left work to spend time with me , ? Then I realized I was going away this night itself so it wasn't a big deal but deep within I am happy .

She entered in the car and started driving , what are you taking, ? Have you started packing she asks her voice a little soft ,

Umm yea .. do you want anything ,? Let's go shopping ,

She didn't let me answer her as she packed her car Infront of a very big mall and we went in,

We entered and not soon, we were in the collection of shirts , shorts and jeans .

This looks so cool,  I muttured and took a grey baggy shirt and pants and show her ,

Yep that fits you .. sarcasm filled in her voice making me laugh .

Mom stop !! For a moment I thought you were complimenting my choice of clothes ,

Oh you have a choice too, ? She asks. And alas !I was taken a back with what she said ..

Umm yea .. I mused ,

Rolling her eyes , she took some shorts for me , more underwear and winter scarfs ,

Mom that's not needed , this was all listed on the paper and some others I have already paid so they will give them to you,

But mom ..

No, I am already suffering right now , but I have no choice but to let you do whatever you what Honey .. am I not allowed to care , ? She asks and I felt really bad ,

She was in the verge of tears as she talked ,

I am sorry, I hugged her which made her to break down ,

Why are my children crazy and full of weird choices !!she laughed through her tears ,

It is what is though .. I am going to miss you , my little bean .

I miss her calling me that !! She has always been so careful with us all .

Especially when any of us gets hurt , and well I am the only one who keeps on hurting her every time .

I don't listen to whatever she says to me and right now I am all deaf ears , I want to join the millitary .

Please don't hate me honey ..she whispers .
I am just being a concerned mother hen  ,

Never !you will always be my number one .. I said whilst smiling with prickles of tears threatning to fall .