The divorce

Chapter 21

Katrina

The night  flew early to me , we came back from shopping two hours ago and I managed to pack every thing that I wanted to take with me ,

I feel excited and at the same time I feel a little nervous ... Some kind of fear that I could not explain in my veins ,

Because 1 , I was sacrificing my life and leaving everything behind starting with my dearest mom , brother and sister who love me the most in the whole world .

Sitting on my bed , A knock snapped me out of my trance ,

Are you okay, ? Mom asks concerned laced through her voice ,

She wanted to cry, I could see through her eyes , the way she became so touchy with me and all I can say is I feel so guilty . I feel like I am worrying her and inflicting pain now and then ,

Mom .. I am alright don't worry. I assured her giving a small smile ,

Honey ... She sighed and took a lose strand of my hair and tucked it back ,  you have always been mine , i birthed you and watched you grow . Do you think there's any parent wants to see their daughter gone not knowing how she is going to live in those places , ?

I understand mom, I am sorry for making you worry but don't worry about me , I will be alright. 

I pinched her cheek to lighten up her mood but she didn't , I just feel awful right now ,

Kissing my forehead and cheek , she told me to start getting ready as I had to leave after a half an hour .

Sighing , I walked to the bathroom with nothing but pain in my heart , I felt so guilty and most of all I hate to see her cry ,

She has always been a strong woman , seeing her break down Infront of me just makes my heart sink at it's fullest,

She wants the best for me but at the same time , she is scared ...

" Why .. ?"

Because I am her daughter and she doesn't want me to put myself in trouble . Or is there something more that she doesn't want to tell me , ?

I would never know , she has always been so observable with her emotions and her surroundings ,

Stopping the tears that threatened to leak past my eyes , I swallowed hard and took my towel and wrapped it around myself after I cleaned myself .

I went to my closet and choose a matching  sweatpant and  a baggy shirt , and took my boots and walked outside of my room with a back pack  ,

This is it .. 

I will miss my little place , but I have to look forward and carry on with my life, I can't use the same room again and again to wallow off my tears and the pain,

I have to face the world and take actions to change my life for the better , I whispered back before a lone tear leaked out from my eye .

I stepped the few stairs and found Leonardo , Anne together with mom who were standing like  bodyguards .

My heart ached becuase I knew they were just looking out for me and I am choosing my dreams over them ,

Leonardo broke out the silence and we both made a group hug which made mom break down crying,

We said nothing , we calmed her down  like how children are  supposed to comfort their parents ,

She has always been our only parent , our mother and  a father to us , she has always been strong  and patience with us .

Now let's go you guys ,we will make her late and we don't want her to miss her bus as much as I want her not to go. Mom says making us all chuckle .

We walked to the car ,and she chose to stay with me at the backseat , she took my hands on her and concentrated at Leonardo who was driving  ,

It was an eerie silence , " The darkness and our sillhoutes are the only ones that were seen inside the car ."

Why is everyone so silent ,?  You guys need to listen up ! It's not like she will never return , she just chose a different path but a bit of a  dangerous one ,

"And it's okay mom .. " Anne says which she didn't miss a glare from her ,

Anne , I think it's high time you get your ownn child then you will realize how I feel right now ,

This brat is my last daughter, you are my second and leo is my first and I will forever want you guys to be with me , around me forever .

I feel like being with you all near me ,  secured under my watch like a mother hen will make  me more of a better mother and learn more about everyone  of you .

Well she has a point,

But we grow and we all have our
Own lives to chase , and dreams to fulfill .

Mom broke down again, I understand and that's why I don't want any of you to feel like I am forcing you to do anything,

I am .. just concerned. 

I hug her and pat her back .

Anne stop .. the old woman will get sick if you make her cry once more , and she will take advantage of you and leo . I joked politely which she and leo both chuckled ,

She knows how to play her cards well, I mean you are talking about Mrs ...

We all bursted into a fit of a laughter listening to Leonardo's silly words before he even finished the last ones . 

We made some jokes and lightened up the mood , and I was thankful seeing everyone had a smile on their faces .

This will always be the memory of all time   .

When we were near the drive ways of the millitary busses , I was so dumbfounded that my jaw hanged open seeing all the people who were standing on one line .

Mom broke into tears and whispered after the car stopped ,

"Promise you will eat well , promise you will bath and take care of your health .

Promise you will come home fit and fine , I just can't see you in pain . If you can't do it please come back, I will always be proud  of a woman who you have become today and tomorrow . "

Nodding through my tears , I hugged her tightly feeling her warmth for the last time and got out of the car ,

Leonardo handed me my tiny bag and hug me tightly , make sure you become tough when you are in there ,

I would like to see you fight me when you are back, I giggled and gave him a thumbs up .

Anne broke down into tears ,she is like mom .. she doesn't show too much emotions and when she does ,

Hell break lose and she can all but  cry ..

Mom kissed my face for the 50th time and embrace me .

I love you my baby .. she whispers and let me walk away joining what I  and my heart thumped on ,

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