Sequel ❤️~Why am i never enough

part 61

a couple of months past and santea ended up just disappearing it was like he was just completely wiped off the face of the earth no one heard anything from him or about him but isabel has been living with me in my new house recently she's been doing good we're both single though and honesty after the whole situation with santea i don't think i want to be taken ever again even though that's the case kairi has been acting differently usually he's the friendly kairi that i know but lately he's been really flirty and i'd be lying if i say i didn't flirt back sometimes but i don't know if i'm ready for another relationship but i feel bad because i feel like i'm leading him on but then again kairi would never hurt me even if i dated him right anyways he was coming over today with some of the others so i got in the shower thinking and getting dressed then i went downstairs eating breakfast with isabel and talking to her until there was a knock on the door and kairi, dejuane, challan, derek, manolo, nia, and larray came inside they all hugged me one by one and when kairi did he touched my butt but i just played it off like i didn't notice and i went back finishing my breakfast then i went and sat next to him on the couch holding his hand and messing with his fingers

Kairi: hey y/n whenever we're done here can i talk to you upstairs alone
Y: um sure why not is everything ok
Kairi: yea everything's great
Y: alright

i continued watching movies with everyone a little nervous about what he has to say then after about three movies everyone was either doing their own thing or still watching movies snuggled in blankets so kairi got up and grabbed my hand walking upstairs into my room then he closed and locked the door while i sat on the bed then he sat next to me we were just looking at each other then kairi leaned in kissing me and i was very shocked and i ended up kissing back until i snapped out of it and pulled back

Y: kairi i can't do this

i stood up about to walk out but kairi called my name so i turned back around

Kairi: listen i get it a few months ago after everything happened with santea you might not want to be in a relationship ever again but i want you to at least know i like you and if you want i can wait as long as you want i'm not going to rush you into anything hey if you want you can kiss me or whatever and we'll still be best friends until you decide otherwise i just at least want a shot at being with you y/n

i didn't know what to say but hearing he would wait made me happy so i turned back to him kissing him next thing i knew we were making out then one thing  led to another and i realized i just had sex with my best friend

Kairi: i see why most people are obsessed
Y: yea
Kairi: listen y/n if you don't ever want to talk to me again after this i understand and even though it's gonna hurt and suck i'm not going to stop you
Y: no kairi i'm not going to do that i'm just confused right now i don't really know wether i want a relationship right now or not
Kairi: i said i was fine with waiting and i mean that
Y: but i don't want you to feel like i'm leading you on
Kairi: hey y/n after your last relationship i'm not expecting you to rush into anything with anyone not even me it's ok i promise i knew what i was doing when i kissed you and so what even if you don't want a relationship i'm just glad i finally told you how i felt after literally years
Y: thank you bubs i promise i'm going to try
Kairi: take all the time you need y/n

even though i didn't know if i should i kissed kairi then once he kissed back i got up and went into the shower for a while then i got out and got dressed and when i went back into the room kairi wasn't there and i let out a sigh of relief then i fixed the bed and turned the tv on and sat down watching movies then larray walked upstairs jumping on the bed and sitting in front of me

Larray: what's up with you and the little olaf look alike
Y: he's not an olaf look alike
Larray: don't dodge the question
Y: nothings up with us
Larray: then how come his little self has hickies
Y: i don't know someone could've gave them to him
Larray: solve this riddle for me y/n
Y: ok
Larray: kairi gets hickies
Y: ok
Larray: then you who haven't had a boyfriend in months now has hickies now unless there's a ghost around here giving out free dick then something is going on between you and kairi
Y: fine ok i had sex with my best friend and not only am i fucking with his head but i'm fucking with mine too and i'm a complete mess
Larray: well do you like him
Y: yes but
Larray: but what
Y: i still don't know if i'm over dejuane and i don't know if i want a relationship after santea
Larray: ok you and dejuane have been done for a while let that shit go and santea isn't around babes fuck him don't lose a good one because you're still focused on what happened in the past he can't hurt you no more y/n and were never going to let him so breathe and let they shit go too
Y: you're right
Larray: now i'm not not saying you have to end up with kairi but don't play the boy
Y: i'm not going to play him
Larray: that means don't do anything else with him until you figure out if you're really ready to try or not
Y: i think about him like crazy larray he's always on my mind but i just thought it was because he's my best friend but after today i don't know if i will be able to only look at him in that way
Larray: then go for him but do it at your own pace

i'm back sorry i was gone so long 😅