Sequel ❤️~Why am i never enough

part 13

while y/n laid there silently crying an hour passed and someone walked in rubbing her back so she thought it was kairi but they started rubbing her stomach with their hand as they did her eyes widened and her tears got worse and without even looking she slapped their hand off and scooted away from them

Y: i told you i can't be near you right now
Dejuane: i know but i couldn't stay away from you i need you in my life even if it's as just friends but i have to have you near me every second of the day hugging me and laughing with me i really need you please
Y: dejuane please don't do this to me 
Dejuane: please i miss you

she didn't even say anything she just got up hugging him and he put his face in the crook of her neck hugging her back while they were hugging y/n felt a tear from dejuane fall on her shoulder so she hugged him tighter rubbing his back and the thing she did next she knew would probably hurt her in the end but she needed to do it so she pulled away while dejuane looked at her still crying with a confused look then as he was about to say something she smashed their lips together and dejuane pulled y/n by her waist putting her on his lap while he wrapped his arms around her back and she wrapped hers around the back of his neck once they started making out dejuane took off her shirt and the next thing they knew the door was locked the tv was on music on full blast and they were under the cover trying to heal each other's pain for the moment even though they knew afterwards wouldn't be the same once they finished y/n fell asleep on dejuane and he fell asleep with his arms wrapped around her back while the others were in the living room sitting around

Kairi: is she ok why the fuck is the tv so loud
Sharan: i don't know but i know dejuane came here about two hours ago looking for her
Mike: you don't think
Kairi: no y/n knows better she wouldn't give in it's just not something she'd do
Derek: but that would ex-
Kairi: it's not something she'd do drop it i'm going to sleep y'all should do the same
Mike: i guess good night guys

while everyone went to their rooms to sleep kairi forced himself to think that y/n was just listening to music then he walked upstairs to her room as he was about to open the door he heard the music stop so he just walked off going into his room laying down and falling asleep like the rest of the house as morning rolled around and everyone was still sleep y/n woke up looking down at dejuane and instant regret washed over her and she quickly got up showering and going downstairs sitting on the couch trying to figure out what to do as she was thinking dejuane came and sat next to her kissing her but she pushed him away and moved

Dejuane: what's up with you
Y: last night was a mistake dejuane it was a moment of weakness and i should've never let it happen and i'm sorry for getting your hopes up on there being an us again i feel terrible but i can't be with you
Dejuane: so what you're saying is you used me as a way to make yourself feel better
Y: i'm sorry i just wanted to have you again but now i know i can't do that without hurting myself
Dejuane: wow um i don't know what to say i never expected for you to use me let alone for your own beneficial gain
Y: i'm truly sorry dejuane and i feel bad that i did this to you but i just really can't be with you
Dejuane: i'm gonna go guess i've embarrassed myself enough
Y: dejuane i'm sorry please forgive me
Dejuane: um i'll call you before i drop the kids off
Y: dejuane

dejuane walked out the house closing the door then driving straight off while y/n threw her head back on the couch disgusted with herself and mad

Kairi: so it was true
Y: bubs what all did you hear
Kairi: enough to know that yesterday when everyone thought that you and dejuane were upstairs together they were right
Y: bubs i'm sorry and i know you're disappointed in me
Kairi: don't call me that right now y/n
Y: i'm disappointed in myself and disgusted i don't need anyone else being also
Kairi: just hurt that i thought you would never do that but i was definitely wrong
Y: you did the same with gabby so why am i being judged
Kairi: me and gabby didn't do anything
Y: but you would've if i didn't walk in
Kairi: but you did
Mike: what's going on
Angel: for real
Kairi: last night y'all were right
Mike: about dejuane and y/n
Kairi: yea she was doing exactly what we thought
Y: so me being upset with myself just isn't good enough for you everyone had to know so they could all be mad at me right being trapped in my mind wasn't cruel enough for you i had to have other people telling me what i did was dumb and stupid along with dejuane who i still can't get out of my head that i just fucking played do you not know how bad i feel right now i keep messing shit up and maybe it's because i want people to feel how i feel which is so fucked up on my behalf but i know i went to far when i hurt dejuane he looked at me with so much hurt because i gave him the illusion that i was going to take him back and he was so happy until i told him that he was wrong now he's going to go right back to not talking to me and getting revenge by making me cry and seeing him with other girls so save all the judgmental shit i have myself for that

i grabbed my keys and walked out of the house and went to the bridge with all the pretty lights and i looked over the edge into the water just staring and washing away all my emotions just zoning out

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