IT ISN'T YOU

40| Being positive in the present

"What are you doing tonight?" Taehyung asked, opening the door of my room and closing it after him.

"Nothing special," I rolled over in my bed, sitting straight to face him. He huffed out as he sat down, hands on his knees, "So, you're free right?"

I merely nod, feeling fatigued, it was a tiring day, even though I barely did anything; it's almost two weeks since I walked around as much as I did. "Are you tired?" He looked at me, I looked back, shaking my head, "Nah, I'm fine."

Taehyung nodded; he fell silent as if contemplating on something, looking at the wall in front of him, after a few minutes he spoke up, "You know..." he trailed off, making eye contact with me for a second before looking down at his hands, "If you don't mind, we can go out you know?"

Observing me looking at him questionably he added, "I owe you a meal, remember?"

I chuckled, "You're seriously holding onto that Tae? I wasn't serious about it."

"But I am," he deadpanned.

I nodded, stretching my hands above my head, "I know, I know; what's the time?"

He looked at the non-existent watch on his wrist, "Eight."

I raised my brow at him, "And you know it just by looking at your skin?"

"I have special powers you know." He whispered; I shook my head, smiling. "So, are you up for it?"

I thought for a moment, not that I had anything to do, but being outside with him without the others questioning us couldn't be evaded. Especially since I didn't leave on good terms with Jin, it will get more awkward, but it's also an opportunity to go and eat outside, it's been quite a while.

"Jin hyung won't say anything if you're wondering," Taehyung mused, shrugging lightly, "He says he doesn't care whatever I do, and since, you're finally on an official thing about the apology, he wouldn't have anything to object."

I hummed, swinging my legs back and forth, "I guess, I'll go with you for today, I'm bored anyway."

His face lit up and he smiled, "Okay, get ready; we'll go out in twenty."

I nodded, watching his figure retreating to the door, disappearing soon after. I sighed and got up, sorting through the limited clothing, I decided on a pair of jeans and the tee Taehyung had lent me. I couldn't help but always feel grateful towards him for understanding a stranger; he was the only one who tried to look at this situation from both sides, not completely subsiding on one.

However, I couldn't help but question what bothered Jimin to the edge that he started behaving like a different person, after Soohyun had told me what he did for her...he couldn't be considered the bad guy, he definitely isn't one. It doesn't matter how much his snarky remarks irritate me, what stabs at my heart is that I'm the one behind all this, he shouldn't be going through all this.

I sighed.

Now, I think I understand why he loathes me so much, I can understand how media would be all over him, and being demanded of an explanation for such a complicated scenario isn't exactly pleasant for anyone. Regretting every second of the moment I'm living here is all I can do. I don't know how Jin is planning to tackle this situation, making me do presentations and asking me to go on a business trip with them isn't my ideal type for an apology.

No matter how much I think about this situation, I only end up overthinking.

Pushing all my thoughts aside, I sit back on my bed, waiting for Taehyung to come.

******

"Thanks for today Tae," I smiled warmly at the boy walking by my side.

He shrugged and replied, "It's okay, we all need a few minutes to take the mind off things, it just felt like the perfect time."