!TRIGGER WARNING! self harm, suicide, major angst, depression, eating disorder
i'd recommend not reading this if you're under 13 or 14 just because of language and triggering subjects :)
(the first few chapters are literally awful i'm so sorry but i...
ok just two more of these oneshot thingies and then we get back to the story, gotta make sure all our babies get their time with you :)
pov:shoji i woke up kind of late and was going to the dorm kitchen to get some breakfast but when i was going through the common room and lobby i saw a security guard walking around outside. upon further investigation i saw (Y/N) and mr aizawa talking to her, a slightly worried look on (Y/N)'s face. i went over and waved to her and when she saw me her face lit up and she smiled, waving back at me. "what's going on?" i asked them, and aizawa answered. "there was an incident yesterday and (Y/N) was in danger again" he said, glaring pointedly at her, "and we need to tighten security around here so we hired a guard." (Y/N) looked sheepish, "sorry for causing so much trouble mr. aizawa". he sighed and patted her head with a small, yet genuine smile. "it's not your fault sweetheart, and don't worry your parents don't know about any of this." i looked between them with confusion and (Y/N) turned to me, "mr aizawa is friends with my parents, i've known him since i was a baby and he's like a second dad to me" she explained with a smile. i nodded in understanding, now that i look back they had always been pretty close. mr aizawa nodded to her, "we're all done here, you can go hang out with your friend if you'd like (Y/N)." she smiled, "thanks!" and came closer to me, taking my hand and looking up at me expectantly. "where are we going?" i blushed a little and answered "i woke up not too long ago so i was just going to get some food, you're welcome to come with me". she nodded with that cute little smile of hers and we walked to the kitchen together, our hands still linked. i grabbed some leftovers out of the fridge and sat down at the table. she sat across from me and leaned on the table, resting her chin on her hand and looking at me as i ate. she seemed to be thinking about something but i didn't notice at the time, all i could focus on was how perfectly adorable her face squished when she rested it on her hand like that and how her long eyelashes would sometimes brush against loose strands of hair that fell into her face. i finished eating and put my dishes away before going back to the table and sitting down next to her. "hey do you have any of those cookies left?" i asked her, "they're so good!" she smiled, "i'm glad you like them! katsuki ate the last one yesterday but i can make more right now, wanna help?" i nodded happily, glad to have an excuse to spend more time with her.
pov: (Y/N) i smiled, "great!" and went into the kitchen, shoji following close behind. i went on my tiptoes and reached for my cookbook but shoji beat me to it, easily grabbing it and giving it to me. "thanks shoji!" i smiled. i opened it to the page with my recipe on it and set it on the counter. there were notes and scribbles all over the page from me tweaking the original recipe and experimenting to make the best cookies possible!
(yes i do have a real recipe for you guys, it's my favorite one trust me it's amazing you'll have the best cookies ever) ingredients: 1/2 cup butter 1/2 cup granulated sugar 1/4 cup packed brown sugar 2 tsp vanilla extract 1 large egg 1 3/4 cups all purpose flour 1/2 tsp baking soda 1/2 tsp salt 1 cup chocolate chips instructions: - preheat oven to 350F - microwave butter until completely melted (but not hot) - mix butter and sugar in a large bowl - stir in vanilla and egg - add the flour, baking soda, and salt - mix dough until just combined (soft and a little sticky) - stir in chocolate chips - scoop out 1-2 tablespoons of dough for each cookie and set them 2 inches apart on a greased baking sheet - bake for 7-10 minutes or until done, they'll be puffy and look a little underbaked in the middle :) (not to flex but people have told me my cookies are the best they've ever had so yeah try it lol)
shoji looked at the recipe and went to get a bowl while i went into the pantry to get sugar and flour, dragging a stepladder up to the shelf. i climbed up a few steps and grabbed the flour, bringing it back over and setting it down on the counter before going back for the sugar. i climbed to the very top of the ladder, going up on my tiptoes and reaching for it, stretching my arm as far as it would go... i finally got it and started stepping down again when my foot slipped, sending the sugar into the air and me toppling to the ground. my arms flailed and i squeezed my eyes shut, bracing for impact- but was met with something soft and warm instead. ❤️i opened my eyes to see shoji holding me, one arm behind my shoulders and another under my knees. he sat me down on the floor gently and brushed some sugar off my hair. "are you ok?" he asked worriedly. i laughed a little, "of course i am, thanks for catching me! although a lot of sugar spilled..." i looked at the mess on the floor and picked up the bag of sugar, seeing that most of it was still inside. i put it on the counter and shoji helped me sweep up the sugar on the floor. after we finished he'd gotten the rest of the ingredients and we were finally ready to start baking. i turned on the oven and got out a mixer, attaching the paddle while he melted the butter. i poured the sugar into the bowl and he dumped in the melted butter, turning the mixer on to a low speed. "you've got some sugar..." shoji leaned down and brought his hand up to my face, brushing it off my cheek. his hand lingered there for a few seconds after though, his dark eyes roaming over my face before settling on my lips. 🧡i felt a blush spreading across my face although i was unsure whether it was from embarrassment or something else... his eyes met mine and he blushed, looking sheepish as he reluctantly reassumed his normal posture. "sorry (Y/N)" he said, avoiding my eyes. "don't apologize, i don't mind" i said with a smile. i added the eggs and vanilla and watched as they swirled into the butter and sugar, a sweet smell wafting through the room. there was a slightly awkward silence as shoji scooped the dry ingredients into the mixer and the dough thickened, forming a ball. "almost done!" i chirped, adding chocolate chips and mixing them in by hand. we both put cooking spray on our hands so the dough wouldn't stick too much and started rolling out the little balls, spreading them out evenly on a greased pan. once it was filled i opened the oven and put them in, turning my head quickly when shoji spoke, "(Y/N)?". "hm?" i said, not paying attention as my hand touched the hot rack of the oven. i inhaled sharply, closing the oven and shaking my hand to cool it off. shoji's eyes widened and he grabbed a paper towel, soaking it in cold water and quickly placing it on my hand. "(Y/N) i'm so sorry are you ok?" 💛i smiled and nodded, thinking it was sweet how worried he was. "oh yeah i'm fine, don't worry!" he clasped my hand in two of his, careful not to put pressure on the burned area at the base of my thumb, and just held it there. there was another long silence, but a comfortable one this time, just the two of us together, my hand in his, until the paper towel warmed up and he went to throw it away. "so what were you gonna say?" i asked him. "oh, nothing" he said. 💚the oven beeped and i went over to get them out but shoji stopped me with a hand on my shoulder, putting on oven mitts and getting them out himself. he set them down on a cooling rack and sat down at the table again, me following. we sat next to each other and i pointed to his shirt, "you've got flour on your shirt shoji" i said with a small laugh, leaning in and brushing my hand over his chest to get it off. he tensed up a little, a nervous blush spreading across his face, "t-thanks (Y/N)" he said with a smile. 💙i smiled back "no problem! i think the cookies are cool enough now, wanna get some?" he nodded and we each grabbed a cookie from the rack before going to sit back down again. it was known that shoji never takes off his mask even to eat, just creating a mouth on one of his dupli-arms and eating with that. "...hey shoji? why do you wear your mask all the time?" i asked hesitantly. "you don't have to tell me if it's sensitive i'm just curious". he smiled "no it's alright! it's because my face isn't...normal i guess. i was bullied all the time for it when i was younger and so i've worn it all the time since i was seven." he shrugged. my face fell, "oh no that's so sad! you know we would never bully you here right? i don't think even katsuki would even though he's a little mean" he shrugged again and smiled slightly, "i know you wouldn't, i've just gotten so used to it i wouldn't know what to do without it." i nodded in understanding and he paused for a second, "(Y/N)...would it be ok if i showed you my face? i'll inevitably have to take my mask off at some point and i think i want you to be the first to see me" he said quietly, looking down at the floor. "of course you can shoji, i'm touched that you trust me enough" i said with a soft smile. he reached up and slowly pulled his mask down, revealing a cute almost lizard or doglike snout with sharp teeth and a long tongue.
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his dark eyes darted around the room nervously as he waited for my reaction. i scooted closer to him and reached up, cupping his face in my hand and tilting it to look at me. i smiled warmly and sat up straighter, pulling his face down gently and placing a kiss on his cheek. "you're beautiful shoji." 💜his eyes widened and he blushed, speaking to me with his real mouth for the first time, "(Y/N)...thank you." the first thing he said out of his actual mouth was my name. out of everything he could've said, he said my name. i blushed a little, flattered and touched by this. he pulled me into his arms and wrapped himself around me tightly, his larger body easily engulfing my small one as he nuzzled his newly exposed face into my hair. i nestled into him with a smile, "thank you" he said again quietly. we stayed there like that for a while, rocking back and forth slightly until i felt something wet on my face. i looked up and saw tears in his eyes, "oh no what's wrong? are you ok?" i asked softly, reaching up and brushing them away gently. he smiled and said in a slightly shaky voice, "i was...so afraid of scaring you or...that you'd be repulsed by me...it means so much that you still love me". my heart melted and i cupped his face in both my hands, placing a little kiss on his nose with a smile, "it doesn't matter what you look like shoji, i'll always love you" he smiled back, wider this time and showing his teeth. "you can call me mezo."
ShojiThoughts ❤️- i saw her slip out of the corner of my eye and dropped what i was holding onto the counter, running to catch her as fast as i could. 🧡- i'd never gotten to look at her face closely before...she's even more beautiful up close. those big eyes with long lashes, cute nose that scrunched up a little when she laughed, faint but noticeable freckles across her nose and cheeks, and soft pink lips, slightly parted as if waiting to be kissed... 💛- i was so afraid i'd hurt her, it was my fault she got distracted. 💚- i honestly didn't know what i was gonna say to her, maybe i should've thought this through... 💙- i wasn't expecting that but i definitely wasn't complaining! i knew she didn't mean anything by it but just her hand brushing against my chest like that gave me butterflies. 💜- she kissed me she kissed me she kissed me she kissed me she kissed me she kissed me ohmygosh i'm so happy
A/N i know these chapters are getting progressively worse but i promise after these oneshot thingies it'll get better again, i have pretty good ideas for it! i know i say this like every chapter but i really do love you guys <3
