꧁𝚆𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎, 𝚞𝚗𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚞𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚒𝚞𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚋𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝙰𝚖𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚊. ꧂
"I preferred to be in a war zone then b...
"Do you want to talk about it?" Spencer asked Y/n sitting her down on the bed in his room.
"I-I can't... I can't stop th-thinking about it" She replied tearfully.
This whole situation was one Spencer never thought he would be in, nor did Y/n for that matter. Not that it bothered Spencer, he was happy that she was finally letting him in. At the same time it broke his heart to see her cry, not once in the year and a bit that they had known each other, had he ever seen her cry.
"A-About the torture?" he questioned sitting down on the end of his bed next to her. She looked up at him and nodded. "Did you have a nightmare?"
"Y-Yeah" Y/n mumbled
"Talk to me" Spencer whispered, hesitantly placing hid hand in hers, Y/n looked down at her hand but didn't pull away. Spencers hands were warm, and they stopped her from shaking.
"W-When they took me, I-I thought that was it... They usually kill soldiers immediately, b-but for some reason they kept me alive..." Y/n paused as her voice broke and tears rolled down her cheek. She cleaned her throat before continuing. "A-And the torture was endless... By the end I just wanted to die... The thought of continuing after the worst thing I could ever imagine happening to me happened, I just... I just wanted them to kill me"
"And then you were saved... And you had to continue" Spencer replied.
"Yeah... exactly... I don't safe anywhere, I have demons everywhere... Not just in Iraq but here in the US... I-I can't tell you everything, b-but the past isn't the only thing that keeps me up at night" Y/n looked up at Spencer tearfully looking for answers but Spencer didn't know what to say.
"I... I won't let anyone hurt you" He mumbled
"I'm scared if they hurt me... I scared they'll hurt people I care about" Y/n whispered.
"That's why you don't let people in" Spencer realised "You're protecting us... from what?"
"I don't want to tell you... Can you just... accept that I probably won't ever tell you?" Y/n questioned.
"I can, but you can tell me anything... You can always talk to me... No matter what time, I'm going to be here for you" Spencer responded squeezing her hand.
