Dishing The Dirt: Tommy Lee • Mötley Crüe •

Chapter 18

I could hear beeping and then a noise that made me think of Darth Vader. I could feel something warm on my face so I opened my eyes and instantly shut them again as the sunlight beamed through the window. I rubbed my eyes a little and moved my tongue around my mouth trying to create some moisture. My head was heavy but I couldn't recollect drinking with Vanessa last night...

I opened my eyes and went to look beside me, expecting to see Vanessa snoring away, but I was in an unfamiliar room. I frowned as I looked directly across from me and saw Vanessa lying there. Everything from last night came flooding back and it hit me like a train.

I pulled my chair forward and held onto Vanessa's hand. I started to kiss the cuts and bruises that covered her hand and I started balling again. Last night, I was wasted and it pretty much numbed any kind of pain, but now - it was a completely different story. The emotional pain was so intense, it's almost like I could feel it in my bones.

I started to think of all the memories me and Vanessa had. From the moment her crazy ass tried to kick my door in... to the party... to all the dates we went on... all the times we got trashed together... all the times she washed my clothes and cooked my dinner... the way she always used to fix things when I'd done something wrong...

I missed her so much. I just wanted to hear her giggle. I wanted to feel her eyes watching me while we sat in complete silence. I wanted to wake up to her playing with my curls. Fuck, I even wanted her to scream at me and tell me I'd done something wrong!

I was in love Vanessa before I came to Greece, but now, what I felt for her was more than that. I couldn't explain it. I just knew that I wanted to be with Vanessa until I took my last breath and I wanted this baby with her. I wanted to be a father.

I went to gently place my hand on her stomach but the door clicked open and a bunch of voices merged together to create some kind of chaotic noise, causing me to stand up.

"Tommy!" My mum came running in and hugged me.

I put my arms around her and looked over her shoulder. I saw Sharise bolt into the room, she started crying and picked up Vanessa's hand.

Athena and another woman I'd never met before followed her and helped hold Sharise up. She was a mess.

My dad walked in with Vince and then to my surprise Nikki and Mick followed them.

"You all made it" I said as I looked round at everyone.

It meant a lot seeing Mick and Nikki here. Vanessa always took care of Mick when his back fucked up and she'd built a good friendship with Nikki, but I didn't expect them to come.

"Of course we did!" Vince said as he came over and gave me a hug. "I'm sure Nikki just came for the chicks though" he whispered smugly.

I smirked at his comment. Having the guys and my family here meant a lot.

"Tommy, can I talk to you outside?" Sharise sniffled.

"Yeah... sure" I figured she had a lot of questions and I didn't wanna argue so I went willingly, but then this other woman came out with us. I closed the door behind us and we walked down the hall.

"This is Michelle, Vanessa's aunt" Sharise said.

I held my hand out. "It's nice to meet you! I'm sorry, I didn't realise you were-"