The Boy With Green Eyes

Twenty Three

After Josh said that I started thinking about it what if it was not what I was thinking or what if Alex and that girl was really a couple? A lot of thoughts ran through my head but I did not know what to do. The whole day went like that this was the first time I did not pay attention to the lectures. I was in my own thinking land. I did not even know when the bell ranged for the lunch break. Josh was calling my name and shaking me.

Josh : earth to Bella.
Me : huh?
Josh : what are you thinking?
Me : nothing.
Josh : you were so much in your own thoughts that you did not even hear the bell ringing nor me calling you.
Me : sorry I did not mean to do that.
Josh : it is ok, but what were you thinking of?
Me : um.... I.....
Josh : about Alex?
Me : how do you know?
Josh : it is written on your face.
Me : what? Where?
Josh : dam you are so innocent.
Me : no I am not.
Josh : yes you are.
Me : *sights*
Josh : are you not going to go?
Me : huh? Yeah.
Josh : meet you afterwards then.
Me : you are not going to come.
Josh : you want me also to come and give Alex the wrong impression.
Me : how will Alex get the wrong impression of you?
Josh : I and not speaking of going to the cafeteria.
Me : then?
Josh : you are going to go to Alex and talk to him.
Me : no no no I am not going to do that.
Josh : yes you are.
Me : are you crazy?
Josh : no but I think you are.
Me : me you are the one who is telling me to go talk to him.
Josh : I am? You are the one who is assuming things beforehand.
Me : I do not stand a chance with him.
Josh : how do you know that?
Me : um excuse me have you looked at him?
Josh : yes I have and I have seen how he acts with you.
Me : he sees me as his friend and I do not fit with him.
Josh : why do you think that?
Me : I have boring brown eyes and his eyes are so beautiful green colour it is so relaxing to look at his eye colour anyone would fall for him just by looking at his eyes. And I bet that he is better in kissing and me not even had a boyfriend till now he must have had a tons of girlfriends and has girls around him wherever he goes.
Josh : wow you know yourself so well.
Me : can we came back to the topic that we were talking about?
Josh : girl he will not reject you.
Me : how do you know that? Are you some mind reader or can you see the future?
Josh : no I am not but I know he loves you.
Me : he loves me I do not think so.
Josh : I have seen him getting jealous when any guy looks or talks to you.
Me : he does?
Josh : you just have to keep your eyes open to see it girl you can not stay blind on your crush.
Me : no wonder your crush became your girlfriend so quick.
Josh : come on who does not want to be with me?
Me : I do not.
Josh : sorry this man only lives for his girl and is not planning to leave her in this lifetime.
Me : *laughing*
Josh : but you got to act fast.
Me : what if that girl Alex was talking about is really his girlfriend?
Josh : Bella do you believe me?
Me : of course.
Josh : then why would I lie to my sis.
Me : I just have this feeling.
Josh : remove that feeling out and through it in the dustbin because that is useless I know he will not reject you just go to him and talk you sitting here and just thinking does not help.
Me : ok I will.
Josh : that is my good sister.

For sure I know Josh will not lie to me he is like my big brother he has always thought best for me and is always by my side. But I do not want to hear Alex rejecting me if that happens then I do not think I can see him because I will be sad and not wanting to leave the house after seeing Alex and that girl together I started ignoring Alex and if he rejects me then for sure I will stay at home. But why do I feel Josh knows something that I do not know like he is so sure that Alex loves me and will not reject me and also that girl is not Alex's girlfriend.

Me : Josh.
Josh : yes?
Me : I am your sister right?
Josh : yes of course.
Me : then will you be honest with me?
Josh : yes.
Me : how do you know that girl Alex was talking to is not his girlfriend and Alex will not reject me?
Josh : Bella I and not the person who should tell you this.
Me : you just promised me that you will be honest with me.
Josh : yes I did.
Me : then tell me the truth I want to know.
Josh : Bella as I said I am not the person you should get to know from.
Me : then who should I be asking?
Josh : Alex himself.

I know Josh will not tell me I have to ask Alex but how I am so nervous when I speak with him.

Josh : Bella I am sorry but you will have to hear from him.
Me : ok.
Josh : do not be nervous trust me and go and speak to him.
Me : nothing bad will happen right?
Josh : *nods*
Me : ok.

*Bell ringing*

Me : I will ask him after the school is over.
Josh : ok.
Me : bye.
Josh : Bella
Me : huh?
Josh : I always want to see you happy and trust me you will understand better if Alex tells you.
Me : ok bye *smile*
Josh : bye.

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(To be continued.......)