Sugar Daddy

Can We Come Back From It?

I cheated on u, ok?" I yell turning to look at him with tears in my eyes and he freezes

"With whom?" he asks calmly

"Does it matter?"

"No, I just want to know what he had that I don't..."

"Nothing!"

"I highly doubt it..."

"Please, don't make it any harder!"

"The cat's out of the bag anyway, so please, tell me! Was he better?"

"Olie..."

"Just tell me! I'm a big boy, I can take it!"

"No, u can't! Just let it go!"

"No! U're not leaving until u tell me! Was. He. Better?" he says, raising his voice and I sigh, putting my hands on my face

"Fine! He was different!"

"Different?"

"Yeah, different!"

"Different how?"

"More... Wild... Intense... Kinda animalistic..."

"I see... And u liked it?"

"Honestly? Yeah... It's kinda why I went with him; he seemed like the kind of guy that fucks hard-Oh my God, why am I telling u that?"

"I don't know, but honestly, I don't care! If u value sex more than general intimacy and a meaningful relationship, then I think u did the right thing fucking him..."

"Oliver, no! I don't value it more! I felt really bad after it, that's why I went away and that's why I wanted us to break up..."

"So, breaking up is the only way for u?"

"Well, yeah! I betrayed u! How can we come back from it?"

"Like this..." he says and crushes his lips on mine

~~~

"What was that exactly?" I ask him as we lay on our backs, trying to catch our breaths

"Was it good?"

"It was amazing, but what was it?"

"It could be break up sex or make up sex, take your pick..."

"What do u want it to be?"

"I don't know... I'm confused..."

"How can u be confused? I cheated on u..."

"U did, but I feel so nice with u! We were a good fit!"

"We were, weren't we? But can we come back from it?"

"Well, did u regret it?"

"I did..."

"If u could turn back time, would u do it again?"

"My dad asked me the same thing and I said that I would, but now that I'm back and see all I could lose, I'm leaning to no..."

"Was he that good?"

"He so was! But that doesn't mean u're not good! And this, now, was just... Wow!"

"Who was he anyway?"

"A regular at my club... He was trying to get to me since I started..."

"I see... So, u will see him again..."

"No... I was fired a month ago..."

"What? Why?"

"A girl fell from the counter, sued the manager, so we all got fired for safety reasons... I got a fat check!"

"Oh.. That's bad and good!"

"Yeah... So, if your concern is about whether I'm gonna see the guy again or not, I won't..."

"Do u want us to break up?"

"Not really..."

"Then we won't..."

"Can u really trust me after that?"

"I could try..."

"Look, I have an idea... Let's take it from the top! Let's just say we're dating, without being boyfriend and girlfriend... That way we'll figure out if we can be together or not!"

"Yeah, I like that... How are we gonna do it?"

"Well, we can go on dates, have sex, but we can also see other people..."

"I see... So like in a relationship, but without strings attached, an open relationship..."

"Exactly! Can u do that?"

"Well, I prefer it than losing u entirely!"

"Yeah, me too... We can always stop doing it if we see that it doesn't work!"

"Of course!"

"Great! So we have a deal?"

"We do, yeah!"

"Good..."

"Can we start now?"

"Sure!" I say and immediately ride him

~~~

After leaving Oliver's apartment, I go to my dorm to get ready to go for drinks with Nicky... When I walk in, Sarah falls on me like a bear, hugging me tight

"Heyy roomieee! Missed u soo much!"

"Wow, hey! *chuckles and hugs her back* Kinda missed u too!"

"Kinda?" she asks pulling away to look at me angrily

"I have my own problems, OK?"

"Is your father OK?"

"He's fine! He never had anything, I lied..." I admit going to my suitcase, that Nicky brought back for me while I was at Oliver's

"U did? Why?"

"Well, I cheated on Oliver and I felt awful, so I needed to get away..."

"Please tell me u weren't crying because the sex was bad!"

"Why does everyone ask me about how the sex was??"

"Well, personally, I assume that if it was bad, u wouldn't count it so much, so u might just feel a little guilty, but u just taking off only moments after it, without saying anything to anyone and risking loosing that much lectures, indicates it was great and u feel double guilty for enjoying it!"

"Dammit, u're gonna be a great lawyer!"

"I know! Soooo? Was it anyone from the university?"

"No...he was older... Much older!"

"Much older, meaning some 40-ish guy from the bar u were working?"

"Ok, seriously, how do u do it?"

"Lucky guess!" she says shrugging her shoulders

"Jesus... Anyway, it happened, it's over, I talked with Oliver, it's going to be OK!" I say trying to figure out what to wear

"Really?"

"Yeah... We decided to keep it casual!"

"Casual?"

"Yeah, u know, having sex, going out sometime, but still being able to hook up with other people..."

"So, an open relationship?"

"Kinda... The point is to see if we can put it behind us-if we can come back from it without it being a problem..."

"And u think it will work?"

"I have no idea... All I know is that I don't want to see anybody for a while..."

"Understandable!" she says and then let's me get ready