Waste It On Me (Yoonmin Au)

10- Hickeys

Purple- love
Red- anger
Silver- sad
Green- worried or surprised
Dark blue- lust
Black- emotionless/blank

Jimin p.o.v

I laid in my bed staring blankly at my ceiling, I ran out if tears an hour ago and now I just feel numb, my eyes as black as my mind, feeling betrayed and disappointed.

I know I'm being a petty, Yoongi didn't know what I've been through, when he declined my call he he would have never guessed I needed him for an emergency, if he knew he would have picked up the call immediately.

I know all of this.

But the fact that he wasn't there when I needed him...it made my heart ache in a different way, and for the millionth time, when would I get my happily ever after??...

The two hickeys on my neck made me sick to my stomach, I threw up twice since last night and I hate the fact that I can't scrub them off my skin, I tried my best to not reveal the moments of that fucker's hands on me and how hopeless I was, I keep on repeating to myself the same words over and over,
You are okay now,
You defended yourself,
He didn't get what he wanted,
You are okay now...

I sighed and felt sleepiness taking over my senses slowly, just when I was about to fall asleep the doorbell rang through the apartment, I groaned and cursed as I walked to the door slowly to annoy the unwelcomed visitor whoever he is.

Opening the door harshly I was met by the one only,
Min motherfucker Yoongi.
"Where the fuck have you been?"
I stared silently at him,
"I've been calling nonstop since last night but you are really overdoing it now Jimin!!".

I wanted to snap at him or punch him but my body was so numb to move, I didn't say anything and let him go on with his anger, when I've had enough I frowned and tried to close the door in his face but his leg stopped the door and he pushed it open, my body was still weak after the sobbing fit I had awhile ago so I didn't react in time and ended up falling on my butt.

He froze when he saw me in the ground and his angry red eyes turned green in worry, he bent down to help me stand but I slapped his hand away from me, stood up slowly then turned around to head to my bedroom.

I didn't take few steps before I was stopped by him, he grabbed my arm and turned me to him, he stared at me with silver eyes but all I had for him was black orbs,
"Jimin-ah I just...you got me worried when you kept on declining my calls and I got annoyed wh-",
He cut his words off staring at my neck.

"What are these?",
His voice was low and calm but his red orbs told me his true feelings,
I know he is talking about the hickeys,
"Is that why you weren't answering my calls yesterday?",
I didn't process what he mean but his next words gave it all,
"PARK JIMIN WHO DID YOU FUCK YESTERDAY?".

And that was the last straw...
I slapped him..

He stared at me with wide eyes, my red finger marks where forming on his pale skin, I didn't notice I was crying until a strangling sob erupted from my throat,
"Why are you like this?".

He didn't answer and just stared at me ,
"ANSWER ME!! WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS TO ME?!",
He opened and closed his mouth a couple of times but didn't answer, just stared at my tears falling one by one,
He had the audacity to think I fucked someone other than him,
He had the nerve to think I'm a whore...

I chuckled bitterly and grabbed the collar of my shirt sliding it down revealing to him the other hickey on my collarbone, his eyes switched between silver and red staring at both hickeys,
"It was amazing",
He looked up to my black eyes,
"We really had fun last night, he even kissed my lips all the time unlike you".

His red eyes filled with tears but he didn't let them fall, I walked closer to him and stood so close with our chests touching slightly,
"You might be the only one to have my purple eyes",
I bent my face to his ear and whispered,
"But you aren't the only one to have my dark blue ones".

His breath hitched and he took two steps away from me, he stared at me with a betrayed look,
"Don't look at me like this jagiya, we aren't boyfriends, you don't even love me, so why are you bothered hmm?".
He didn't answer and I refused to calm him or tell him the truth that I was almost raped.

"We are just fuck bodies Min Yoongi",
I turned around and headed to my bedroom leaving him standing in the middle of my living room, I opened my bedroom door and stepped in and stopped,
"Oh and don't forget to go fuck some chick and ask them to leave some hickeys on your neck to show up with them tomorrow at work just like all those cliché stories and movies".

I turned to glance at him with the same black eyes,
"I don't give a fuck Yoongi".

With that I slammed the bedroom door closed, I walked to my bed and laid there again thinking about all that he said and I said, I know I'm making things difficult for our relationship, but I can't believe the thought of me having sex with someone else other than him passed his mind.

I closed my eyes when I heard the front door of my apartment being closed.

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My midterm exams are over and I'm gonna make it up to you for all the wait I'm gonna update the other three stories through out the day❤💜✨

Love you babes and I missed y'all so much ❤💜