Waste It On Me (Yoonmin Au)

16-The trauma

Purple-love
Pink-embarrassed
Silver-sad
Black-emotionless
Orange-annoyed
Yellow-scared

That's a soooooo long chap 🙂😂

Yoongi p.o.v

If stares can kill I would have been dead by now, Jimin has been staring at me since the moment I met this evening in the café, he would sip his coffee, eat his chocolate cake, literally do everything while staring at me, it was nice in the beginning but now I'm getting slightly uncomfortable and nervous.

I cleared my throat pretending to look at my phone but I can see he was still staring at me, I sighed putting my phone down facing him,
"What?!",
He blinked at me not answering,
"What what?",
"Don't play dumb with me Jimin, you've been staring at me all the time, now tell me what the heck is wrong?".

His black eyes stared at me for another second then looked at his phone not answering me,
What the hell?
"Jim-" ,
"Stop taking the pills",
I stared at him with wide eyes,
"W..what??".

He looked up at me with the same black eyes,
"Stop taking the pills Yoongi",
I scoffed looking away, he can't tell me not to take them, he doesn't even know any shit about them,
"I know",
"K-know what Jimin?",
"I know the reason why you take them",
"No....you don't",
"I do....Masul told me".

My orange eyes flashed with red for a moment,
"And how did Masul know about the pills in the first place?",
He closed his lips and looked at his hands for a moment,
"I...stole one of them to bring it to her to tell me what it is",
I took a deep breath to calm myself, closing my eyes and fisting my hands.

"I told you I'm opening bit by bit",
"I know Yoongi but I wa-"
"I told you to not pressure me!!",
He stared at my red eyes, his eyes were grey and sad,
"You didn't trust me",
"NO!! You are the one who was keeping secrets! You are the one who didn't trust me!!",
"I'VE MY REASONS!".

Everyone turned their faces staring at us in worry after my shout, I got up leaving money for our food on the table and left the café,
I walked into the cold dark night and breathed in deeply, I can feel the pill messing with my feelings again, I know I shouldn't have shouted at Jimin like that but...I felt hurt...
It was like he wanted to know what he was getting into to decide if he should go on or not...

I looked upwards to stop my tears, I hearf footsteps behind me butbI didn't turn, the next second I was thrown on the ground, I yelped and turned around facing the culprit only to be met by a crying Jimin on top of me, he was closing his eyes tears falling down his cheeks and the most painful expression on his face.

"What can't you understand in my words when I say I love you?",
I stared up at him and his tears fell down his face to mine,
"J-jimin I-",
"I SAID THAT I WON'T LEAVE YOU!! I PROMISED I WON'T LET YOU GO!! I SAID I LOVE YOU AND YOU DIDN'T EVEN SAY IT BACK AT I STAYED AND DIDN'T LET GO! SO WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FUCKIN GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD?!".

I closed my eyes letting my tears fall too,
"They all promised me to not let go...",
I opened my eyes and he was frozen looking at me, I grabbed his arms that were pinning me and took them off me, I sat up straight with him still on my lap, we were on the pavement and I moved my back to lay against a building pulling him to my arms, he rested his palms on my chest stradling my hips, his eyes were dark silver staring at me with sadness, I pulled myself together and smiled sadly at him rubbing away his tears.

"I didn't have the best kind of childhood Jimin, my father died when I was six years old and my mother was so heartbroken over it, she died of sadness and grieve after it by two months leaving me to be thrown at a random orphanage",
He cupped my cheeks and his grey eyes locked with my yellow ones.