Waste It On Me (Yoonmin Au)

25- I missed you

Jimin p.o.v

I walked through the white corridors of the hospital on my way to the receptionist, the slim blonde girl smiled sympathetically at me and nodded, I bowed slightly to her and walked in the same familiar paths I became familiar with.

I greeted the doctors on my way, I learnt some English phrases and I'm good at that language now, they smiled at me and greeted me back warmly,
We're so familiar with each other after all...

Reaching my destination I stood in front of the white door, staring into the numbers I memorized by heart,
0309093
I sighed and knocked like usual even though I know there would be no response,
Oh how deeply do I hope for a response...

I walked in and my eyes fell on the same sight, the same depressing hopeless sight...
A body laying on a bed covered in a beige blanket and tubes of all sizes connected to the body, the only sign showing life is the small beep echoing in the room from the devices surrounding the bed....

I walked slowly toward the bed and sat on my usual spot, the same chair, the same sigh,
I bent to the same pale beautiful face with the same closed eyes,
I kissed his forehead, the tip of his nose, his eyelids that I wish would open, then his lips,
And just like every time, I hoped I would feel those lips pushing against mine...

I sighed again and sat up, taking his pale hands connected to another set of tubes, and kissed his ring finger staring sadly at the beautiful diamond ring on it..

"Hey jagiya",
I caressed his palm with my thumb,
"Its me... Again... How are you baby?",
My heart beating inside my chest with love and sadness staring at him like this,
"Jungkook and Taehyung bought a new house yesterday, and Army and Hoseok decorated the nursery for their baby boy.... They wished you were there to pick the colors..".

I sighed and looked at the devices beeping around him then back at him,
"When are you coming back love?, ... I missed you",
My eyes watered and I took deep breath to calm down, it has been such a long time yet I never got used to the fact that he isn't responding to me..

A soft knock grabbed my attention and said a small come in,
The door opened and doctor Baekhyun came in smiling at me,
"Hello Jimin-ssi",
"Good morning doctor Byun",
He went to the devices next to Yoongi's body and checked them like usual.

He finished and turned to me,
"If you allow me to say... I'm seriously fascinated by how loyal and loving you are Mister Park, most of those I've seen going into a long term coma like Mister Min are usually forgotten by their loved ones after a year or two.... It has been five years for you".

Five years...

Five long years of waiting...
It feels like fifty years for me...

I smiled slightly at him and shrugged,
"I promised him I'm gonna wait for him till he wakes up... Even if it takes all my life",
He nodded and smiled sadly at me,
"I hope your waiting ends soon Mister park... You two deserve the happiness of the whole world".
"Thank you doctor Byun".

I looked back at Yoongi and let the doctor do his thing around,
According to the doctors here, the substance that was in the pills Yoongi used to take are in his body with great amounts cause he used to take it for nearly all his life, so once the substance is totally gone he is gonna be back, his brain would start responding to his surroundings, but it needs a stimulator to respond to and doctor Byun believes I can be a great stimulator to Yoongi's brain and senses.

And that's how I moved to the USA five years ago, I took a small apartment near the hospital and come visit Yoongi everyday, Namjoon and Jin moved to the USA too and got married here, we are in the same neighborhood and that was a relief honestly, they were a great support to me.

Taehyung and Jungkook got married one year ago and just bought a new house,
Army and Hoseok got married two years ago and Army is expecting a beautiful baby boy in two months...

And here I'm...
I'm spending half of my life in a lonely apartment working as an officer in a company,
The other half of my life is in the hospital that has my love laying inside one of it's beds for five years...

And I never lost hope...

I care for Yoongi's body, tend to his hair and beard, clean his body and pamper him as much as I can,
The nurses kindly allowed me to handle it all and showed me how to do everything for him.

I got weird looks from everyone for stopping my life and waiting all of this time,
I'm a 30 years old charming guy that got sadness printed into the curves of his face, but that didn't stop people from asking me out,
But I never accepted, never allowed anyone into my life,
No one touched me after Yoongi,
No one's lips touched mine after Yoongi,
And no one will...

I smiled sadly at the diamond ring on his, I put that ring on his ring finger three years ago, I said my vows to him, kissed his lips and placed our rings on our fingers in front if our six friends,
It was a beautiful sad tears filled day but it was the day I felt another connection to Yoongi,
Another deeper kind of love and connection...

It was time for me to leave and go back to my apartment,
I stared longingly at his beautiful face again and took his hand in mine again kissing his fingertips like he did to mine five years ago when we had a movie night with everyone, I still remember how that gesture made my heart swell in happiness and love...
I still feel his lips on my fingertips...

"I gotta go jagiya... I'm coming back tomorrow like usual... I missed you love",
I bent to his lips and kissed them longingly...

For a split of a second... I felt something....

I felt... A small press...
A very faint press against my lips..

It was very faint and if it wasn't for the fact that I've been kissing these motionless lips everyday for five years I would have never noticed the slight press,
Like a faint twitch against my lips...

And my heart almost stopped..
My breath hitched in my throat and I broke off the kiss slowly keeping my face near his, our breaths fanning our faces, his face was void of motion or any sign of responding,
I pressed my lips against his again and waited....

But.... Nothing...

My tears rolled down my cheeks, a sob strangled through my chest, the feeling of hope rising so high only to crash me down so hard...it's so painful...

I backed away and contained my sobs, looked at him one more time then whispered,
"See you soon j-jagiya... I love you".
And with that I left...

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