Poems That I Form

Hate Yourself

My brain is too filled with chemicals,
My natural hair is too ugly and dull for me to live with.
My acne gives me scars
And my eyes have always been so brown
They are almost black.
My skin is white,
As white as the paper in a sketchbook,
I had freckles but now I barely go outside.
You can see my ribs from two years of never eating,
Too self-conscious to wear anything other than
Large sweaters and baggy jeans.

I hate it here.
I hate Felton.
I hate hate hate
How every time I feel good about myself
Someone here makes me fall from the pedestal
Of "Maybe I am good enough"
I hate how every time I fall in love
It's for a bad reason
And then something ends up hurting me.
I hate how every time I became a new me,
Someone has to remind me of how sick,
How ugly,
How awful,
How stupid I was the year previous.

I can't wait to get the hell out of here.