D stands for devil

Years

                          1 year later
I sat in the restaurant waiting for my food. I made it a habit to get dinner on fridays since my parents leave on weekends. "Blair" I heard someone say. "James hi" I said. I haven't seen James in almost 6 months since he's in college now. "It's been a while" he said. "Yeah it has been" I said. "Your here alone" he asked. "Yeah" I said. "Me too, you wanna have dinner together" he asked. "Yeah" I said with a smile. We talked then we both got our food."Where's Damon" he asked. My whole body went stiff. I haven't heard his name in a year. "We broke up last year" I said. "Oh shit I'm sorry I didn't know him and I haven't talked in a long time" he said. "It's fine" I said. "What happened" he asked. "Imagine the worst possible thing in the world times 10 there's your answer" I said. "Sounds awful" he said. "It was but let's not talk about it, it's over" I said. "Are you seeing anyone" he asked. "No,you"I asked. "No" he said. "Wow" I said. "Shocked" he asked with a smile. "Kinda" I said. "Well I'm shocked your still single" he said looking at me with a certain look. "Are you" I asked setting down my water. "Yeah" he said with a smile. It's been a year and 6 months. It's time I have fun. "Maybe we should get the bill" I said. "I've got it" he said with a smile. "You sure" I asked. "I'm sure" he said. After James paid the bill I drove us back to my house. As soon as my door shut we were kissing. I want him to kiss me. I want him to kiss me just as much as I want to get over Damon . I want that more then anything. I took off his shirt then he took off mine. Once the rest of our clothes were off we were on my bed. "I've wanted this for so long" he said. "Oh god" I moaned. "Blair" he moaned. "Ahh James" I moaned. I finally felt something and it felt good.

               3 months later
James and I have been seeing each other for three months. It's not serious I told him I didn't want serious and he agreed. My 20th birthday was yesterday. I was planning on breaking up with James but I decided to have one last night with him. He knew it was coming. We both knew. We knew it was a fling. A fun short fling. He helped me heal. We had fun but it's just not working. "We need to talk" I said. "I already know what's coming" he said. "I'm sorry I'm just not feeling it anymore" I said. "It's okay Blair we both knew this wasn't  a forever thing but it was fun" he said. "It was" I said. "Friends" he asked. "Of course" I said. We hugged and he kissed me on the cheek. Thank you James.

                           4 months later
I'm listening to Lucas speak at church. We're talking about love and what love can do to you. He asked if I wanted to speak and I said yes. After he finished he signaled me to go on stage. I was in love. I was eighteen. I was completely in love with him. If he's told me to jump into the water with sharks I would have. We were so invested into each other and going through so much at once. It was intense and amazing and horrible. But when it ended I felt like all the air in my lungs was gone. I couldn't smile for months. I felt as if my whole world was shattered. But slowly my world rebuilt itself. My first love was my best friend. My second love was a arrogant bad boy. And while I loved them both I loved them differently. After my second love left my first love stayed with me as my best friend. Nothing more. Nothing less. My second love took A caterpillar and turned it into a butterfly. I thought we'd be together forever. But standing here today I realized while I lost my second love. I never lost my first and it's taken me time to heal but now that I have. I just want him to know I love you and I hope it's not too late to tell you" I said. Lucas stood up and walked to me. He waited a second. I feel like I might throw up. "I love you too" he said. I smiled then he kissed me. Everyone began to clap and cheer. "Took you long enough" he said. I laughed then kissed him again.

                             2 years later
"Are you sure you don't want to come eight days is a long time for us" Lucas said. "I'll be fine really" I said. He's going on a church trip. "I love you" he said. "And I love you" I said. He kissed me softly. "Hurry up and go before you miss your flight" I said. "Okay but if you need anything call" he said. "I will" I said. We kissed again then he left. I sat on my laptop doing school work for the next 3 hours. Once I was finished I glanced around the quiet house. I looked down at my engagement ring and smiled. Lucas and I've been engaged for 5 months. I love him. He loves me. Finally my life is good again. I'm happy. I'm not sure what happened but I ended up dozing off. Suddenly a knock at the door woke me up. I got up and walked to the door.Ugh I hate when Hannah shows up randomly. I mean a simple phone call would work. "Hannah come on why can you never call" I asked as I opened the door. But this was not Hannah. I stopped breathing.

"Hello sweetheart".