My Rival Enchantress

THROWBACK

"A-are you o-okay now?"

Is this real? Amanda is now worried?!

I tho-thought she's threatening me and now, she's seem vulnerable when it comes to me.

I didn't realize that it is almost 20 minutes and I am still hugging her.

I will not deny but she smells really good, her scent is so addictive.

Her pliable hands caresses my back that makes me feel comfort and safe.

AMANDA? AM I HAVING A CRUSH ON YOU?

Every time that I hear her breathing my heart pumps really fast.

It's like a rollercoaster feeling! That gives me goosebumps and stops me from overthinking.

I want this kind of silence, it gives me relief.

The heat of her body makes me feel more weak.

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT I FEEL SOMETHING REALLY SPECIAL TO A WOMAN.

I-I can't stop this cuddle thingy happening between us.

It feels like I am totally attracted and can't move!

This is the feeling that I am searching for, no one can explain it verbally but my heart knows what it is.

She's moving away from me little by little.

She starts to push me slowly and wants to walk away.

NO! NO!

I want this kind of comfort!

I want this feeling!

I want to be feel safe!

Not now Amanda! You can't just leave me hanging and waiting!

I want to know your real reason why you're being so mean and kind to me at the same time.

I will not let you go again!

Sa-sandali?!

I mean, kailangan ko siyang kausapin!

Yun lang naman e, wala ng iba.

"Wait!"
I compel.

Hindi pa siya titingin ha?!

I will not let you go again and leave me hanging!

Kakausapin kita kahit anong gawin mo!

I hold her arms immediately, she was surprised and looked into my eyes.

Those sterling eyes, that face, that---

No!

Stop it Rabiya!

Huwag kang ma-attract sa kanya.

She's still looking at me and I don't understand what emotions she possess.

Napaka-misteryoso mo, Amanda.

I sighed heavily.

I feel the butterflies in my stomach and this is the first time that I feel nervous in a different way.

Iba sa naramdaman ko sa Miss Universe Philippines o sa mga achievements na natatanggap ko.

SOMETHING REALLY SPECIAL.

"Ca-can we ta-talk?"

Ba-bakit ba ako nauutal?! Am I really nervous?!

Parang nai-intimidate ako na hindi ko maintindihan!