Til Forever Falls Apart - Billie Eilish G!P

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Aliyahs POV:

This chapter is very triggering. Contains in depth sh talk. I'll put a * when it's over.

I held my knee to my stomach as I let a single tear fall down my cheek. My blue LED lights made my tear look brighter.

This is my fault. I let billie do whatever she wanted with me and I let myself believe that I was more than just a hookup. This whole stupid situation is just another thing added to my stress. I just hate it here! I hate it!

I stood up and took a shaky breath as I opened my little drawer. I pulled out a box and opened it revealing a blade. I promised myself I wouldn't do it again. I did. But its just all too much.

My breath hitched as i did it. I did it again, and again. Its so addictive, like a drug. "Fuck!" I whisper yelled as I dropped the blade.

"Shit shit shit I went to deep" I panicked as I searched for tissue to clean up the blood that was pouring out of my arm.

"Fuckk" I started crying as I couldn't find bandaids or anything. I grabbed a shirt and began wiping the blood away.  I wrapped it around my arm and put the blade and box away.

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I collapsed down onto the floor and closed my eyes as I just cried. Why world. Why did you bring me into this awful place if you weren't gonna treat me right?

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Billies POV :

I walked into school with my head down and my hands in my pockets.

People looked and stared but all they got back was a glare. I really fucked up this time. Normally I wouldn't give two shits about hookups feelings but aliyah is a lot different. I don't know why. She just is.

"naw you wrong for that"

I lifted my head up to see aliyah giggling with jaiden and amelia. I felt a soft smile form. I love hearing her laugh. Its so pretty.

Just leave her alone billie

I replayed finneas' words in my head and sighed as I walked the opposite way.

*timeskip to home because a bitch is tryna get to the good part*🙄

As I scrolled on snap I got a message from a homie of mine Danielle.

Dani: wassup bich

Me: wsg

Dani: party at mine tn @10 be der.

Me: shiii bet

Finally something to look forward to. I looked at the time and saw it was 8:40 p.m. I stood up chucking my smashed phone on my bed and went to my closet to find an outfit.

I pulled out my clothes one by one and smiled as I pulled together a fit. I got dressed and fixed all of my jewellery before taking a picture for insta.