Loving Jaxton ✔️

Chapter 19 - guilt

Rylee's POV

I have no words for how my night with Jax went. I could say it was mind blowing, amazing, endless orgasms, and full of everything I wanted but that's not enough to describe it. It was way more than that, it was, it was indescribable. The way we fit, the way we move, it's something I've never experienced before him. It's like we move in the way that pleases the other, and sexually our chemistry is mind blowing.

I'm just laying in his bed with him and I can't stop smiling while looking over at his naked body sleep. It's early now, and I never wake up this early but I couldn't sleep thinking about today. I know what we did was wrong because he's supposed to be dating Poppy. And I hate myself for what we did because of that. He cheated on her, and I essentially made him do it when I walked to his front door and kissed the hell out of him.

But I loved it and one things certain. I love Jax. I do, I don't know if I'm in love with him but I love him so much. I'm just laying with a sheet over my breasts rubbing his shoulder as he sleeps on me. I'm under him, and his head is between my shoulder and the pillow while he's breathing on my neck. His left arm is wrapped around my waist and his right is spread across the bed on the other side. His feet are almost hanging off the end of his huge California king though, and I can't help but smile looking down at the way our legs are. Mine is wrapped around his waist, with my legs open and I can feel his morning wood into the side of my pussy and it's driving me crazy. He's holding me in a position that I can't move and if I move two inches to the right he'd be inside of me.

I've been awake for hours. I cried, I wiped my tears, I've rubbed his back for hours trying to calm myself down, and I've almost made myself sick worrying about what's going to happen when he wakes up and realizes what we did last night.

I can't fathom how much I loved everything that happened and how many times it happened. After our first round, we went four more times. He ended up eating me out twice, and I didn't suck him off once. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was so sore I couldn't move. That's when we fell asleep after he pulled out and threw the condom on his nightstand. Leaving us in this position with him so close to me.

I continue rubbing his back under my nails as I smell his hair softly listening to him breathe. One of my hands is under his neck and is rubbing his lower back while the other is rubbing the top of his back. I hope doing this keeps him asleep longer and postpones the inevitable.

But it doesn't. He sighs into my neck when I realize he's awake and I stop moving my hands. I close my eyes back pretending to sleep when he wakes up and moves his head out of my neck. I hear him sigh and crack his neck twice on the sides as he moves looking at us, I'm assuming.

Then he starts kissing my neck. He moves his lips to my neck sucking it as I open my eyes. That's not what I expected at all. I feel his lips moving down my body when he reaches over grabbing another condom and I realize what's happening. He's waking me up by being inside of me rocking my world and I don't mind. It'll take my mind off of today.

"I know you're awake Ry." He whispers into my ear rubbing his hands across my rib cage down to my thigh opening it fully.

"Then you know what I want." I whisper back into his ear as he laughs and starts kissing down my neck to my lips and back again. When he slips into me we start moaning and rocking our hips together as I hold him close kissing his lips.

I grip his ass bringing him closer when he starts pounding into me kissing my neck again and again. "Ry" he whispers feeling me tense around him and gripping his member. I buck my hips to his when I feel him hit my g-spot and I cum, "Jax." I moan back as I feel him releasing inside of me finishing when I do.