The Protector

Chapter 20 - Drunken State

BEA

I am shocked beyond belief. I have to blinked twice just to make sure that I am not dreaming.

Yes, Jhoana is here in front of me.

In flesh.

Maraming emosyon ang nag uunahang magparamdam sa akin. Old feelings arises like love, pain, heartbreak and happiness. My heart starts racing at first then it slowed down until I felt that it slightly back to normal.

Sa dami ng naramdaman ko sa muli naming pagkikita, mas nanaig yung hinanakit sa lahat. Aaminin ko na, may sama ng loob pa ako sa kanya hanggang ngayon. Nagtatampo ako sa ginawa niya.

Bakit naman Beatriz?

Dahil iniwan niya ako sa ere during the worst moment of my life.

Flashback.

"Bea, I don't want to see you slowly killing yourself. Please, stop drinking!" mataas ang boses na sabi ni Jho.

She tried taking away the beer bottle from my hand but I'm too fast. I had another swig from it.

"Tara, join me." sabi ko.

Lumapit siya sa bintana ng kuarto ko at hinawi ang kurtina. Agad akong nasilaw sa sinag ng araw.

What time is it? I can't find my watch nor my phone. Ahhh, never mind. I don't need them as long as I have my beer.

"My God, look at the mess here! Lumalabas ka pa ba ng kuarto mo Beatriz?" medyo galit na tanong niya.

She starts picking the empty beer bottles from the floor. Pati na rin ang mga empty bags of chips and boxes of pizza na nagkalat kung saan saan lang.

"You're not my mother Jho." asar na sagot ko.

"Bea, hindi na ako natutuwa sa ginagawa mo. Ganito na lang ba tayo tuwing dadalawin kita? Yung makikita kitang lasing at mararatnang tulala. Why are you drowning yourself in self pity? Ayaw mo bang gumaling agad?" she frustratingly asked.

Halos dalawang buwan na rin akong ganito. Ramdam ko na ang pagod at hinanakit sa boses ni Jho. Bakit parang nasasaktan ako? Eh ito ang gusto kong mangyari, yung lumayo ang loob niya sa akin.

"I didn't ask you to come here so please, leave me alone Jho." utos ko dito.

"Why are doing this?" she sadly asked when I opened another bottle.

"Because I want to forget. Like forget everything. I want to get away from this big fucking problem. That's what I want!" sigaw na sagot ko sabay turo sa aking kanang hita na nakabalot pa ng bandage.

"Everything. So kasama ako sa gusto mong makalimutan, ganun ba?" malungkot na tanong niya.

"Yes." I coldly replied. 

"I thought you love me Bea. Why are you pushing me away?" she asked.

Pa ulit ulit na ganito kami ni Jho ever since I had this career ending injury from a fight.