Rebirth: Star Witch Lilian

Chapter 6: dead inside

The day passed and all the attackers were handled.

Of the staff 1 combat Maid and 9 knights were killed including the one guarding my room.

Most of the attackers seemed to be bandits but the ones in my room were the leaders they seemed to be led by former Gehnan commander Graham and a few other people that held grudges against the royal family... against Lisia and Caius... my mother and father

Too much it was all too much for me. I survived the attack only to realize my parents whom I love were the very ones that killed me when I was Excella

Why them... why did they have to be my parents.

"Princess the King and Queen have arrived. Let's go see them." I was only in a nightgown but that hardly mattered. Sophie joined us and both were wearing clean maid uniforms

Thinking about it this was the first time I'd ever seen Charlene during the daytime... or outside my room at all for that matter.

I had successfully healed Sharon and Sophie but Sophie was still bruised all over so she would need to be extra careful for a while meanwhile Charlene was able to avoid losing her arm but it had a nasty scar and it seemed stiffer than before.

They were both badly hurt protecting me... I wish I could do more for them but what? I'm in this weak body I can't see and my magic seemed to only be crappy healing. What was I supposed to do?!? I was upset but also distant and out of it.

As much as I hated to admit it everything about Lisia being the Made sense and it was clear she was my mother. Even before my hearing improved I could always tell there was the same gentleness in her voice but I just felt dead inside.

What would I do now. Did I hate them? Could I still love them? I don't know

We finally reached the front of the castle to see their carriage arrive. I could tell it was different from the tacky royal carriage back when I was dark witch excella but I only knew because this one was brown instead of golden.

"Oh Lily." I could hear Lisia say as she came and wrapped me in a hug that I didn't return I didn't like all these feelings and simply wanted to check out.

"Charlene how is Lily." I heard Caius ask her.

Well at least they care about me.

"The princess was mostly unharmed aside from a couple bruises however..." Charlene trailed off before leaning into his ear

"she's likely heavily traumatized from the event. The attackers broke into her room." She tried to whisper so I wouldn't overhear

Well Charlene you're not wrong but death didn't scare me. You and Sophie were injured because of me, the guard was dead because of me, and I was reminded all too well of my fear of fire.
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The conversation continued but I no longer listened before I knew it I found myself in a different room with Sophie.

Asleep in a chair with her head resting on my bed. I see I passed out I supposed... wait a second

It was still fairly blurry but I could make out details I never noticed like the pattern of the blanket, the mismatched length of Sophie's braids compared to the rest of her hair.

I looked at my and and could see all 5 fingers I moved it farther away and they were still distinct albeit a bit fuzzy.

Did my eyesight improve? Sure it was still bad compared to when I was excella but I could make out much more detail now even when things were across the room. Instead of an incoherent blob it was semi distinct shapes.